allieaust
Active member
Just wondering what goals people have?
I think well if i wasnt crippled by social phobia and bdd then i would....
and that if i was considered not ugly i would...
My goal at the moment is to try and get my self esteem - for which i had some / a little awhile back and than things happened and i went way down hill again.
My goal is to get my fitness in again -
as at home i would walk up to and over 11 km a day as my therapy and loved the feel of being able to feel good, proud and unique- this was at home in a country town -full of hills- it made me feel very strong in myself and and able to wear clothes that werent baggy for once ( not that i was really overweight tho). I am a vegan also and was eating mainly raw veges and some cooked for tea plus my staples ( tempeh, lentils etc). I would not eat any packet foods at all and i felt absolutley great - in control and ready to take on the world ..
i felt so refreshed and clean - it's hard to describe but i was so healthy and proud of myself. But things changed when i was told i looked anorexic, sick, pale and malnourished- for which was not true although i wasnt eating much out of nerves because i was taking a huge leap in my life at the time but being so much into nutrition and taking all the super foods and beyond.. i thought i looked great, that i was glowing with health beacuse that is how i felt.
So now since moving to this new place in a suburb - in a city where there are people around - i get anxious and have gone and eaen things i would normally never eat at all and feel so yucky - i have all this mucus coming out from my mouth and nose constantly and my fitness is going , my skin is looking bad and i dont have a spring in my step, i dont feel good to get dressed anymore..
Yet i want to feel like i did as it was what gave me confidence and i felt good a little about my appearance.. yet my friend a guy will tell me i am unnattractive and sickly looking if i go bacl o my healthy ways - so i feel hopeless- i dont feel good now and know what i can do to feel good yet ..
I have alot of pressure on me to get out and try to achieve something - to work, study - that is why i moved into the city but i cant do any of this unless i feel good about myself and at a time in when i did - i know i can again.. :?
I think well if i wasnt crippled by social phobia and bdd then i would....
and that if i was considered not ugly i would...
My goal at the moment is to try and get my self esteem - for which i had some / a little awhile back and than things happened and i went way down hill again.
My goal is to get my fitness in again -
as at home i would walk up to and over 11 km a day as my therapy and loved the feel of being able to feel good, proud and unique- this was at home in a country town -full of hills- it made me feel very strong in myself and and able to wear clothes that werent baggy for once ( not that i was really overweight tho). I am a vegan also and was eating mainly raw veges and some cooked for tea plus my staples ( tempeh, lentils etc). I would not eat any packet foods at all and i felt absolutley great - in control and ready to take on the world ..
i felt so refreshed and clean - it's hard to describe but i was so healthy and proud of myself. But things changed when i was told i looked anorexic, sick, pale and malnourished- for which was not true although i wasnt eating much out of nerves because i was taking a huge leap in my life at the time but being so much into nutrition and taking all the super foods and beyond.. i thought i looked great, that i was glowing with health beacuse that is how i felt.
So now since moving to this new place in a suburb - in a city where there are people around - i get anxious and have gone and eaen things i would normally never eat at all and feel so yucky - i have all this mucus coming out from my mouth and nose constantly and my fitness is going , my skin is looking bad and i dont have a spring in my step, i dont feel good to get dressed anymore..
Yet i want to feel like i did as it was what gave me confidence and i felt good a little about my appearance.. yet my friend a guy will tell me i am unnattractive and sickly looking if i go bacl o my healthy ways - so i feel hopeless- i dont feel good now and know what i can do to feel good yet ..
I have alot of pressure on me to get out and try to achieve something - to work, study - that is why i moved into the city but i cant do any of this unless i feel good about myself and at a time in when i did - i know i can again.. :?
