I appreciate the advice you give me(and so others have), however people have deliberately or not have completely destroyed my self esteem which causes me to care now what others think. My family, kids around me, all have little or less acceptance of me which I don't really know how I'm not supposed to care what they think since they still do it. I can't be strong anymore since I suffered through all this emotional and possibly verbal abuse from others. I'm just a miscast in my family, just like an miscast actor who doesn't suit for a big holly wood standard movie. I feel like all my family got the spotlight shone on them, but I'm the one who barely gets any recognition or at least consideration to my needs. I don't nessecarily think it's me who really needs to change myself, but I think it's the others who need to realize that life is not how it usually is in the movies. I wish I could find people exactly like me(and no I wound not get bored with another person like me since at least we would have a TON in common) If only I could find people who have my personality traits: kind, sensitive, emotional, shy, helpful, artistic, creative, ect. I never want to befriend another extrovert ever, I'm just done find people who are being complete snobbish and domineering and just the opposite of what I am. I think I'm always paired up with the wrong people, and yet they want to help me even though they still aren't afraid to say I'm quiet or I haven't said one ******* word. I don't need their help, they can help themselves for starters by how they're acting. They say stuff without actually hearing what they have said, because they have no ears to listen. I wonder if it would be really that hard to prove on a tape recorder what these extroverts sound like towards others. Maybe society intended on making extroverts clueless just to make most of us realize how wrong it is.:thinking: