goingcrazy
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I don't understand my thoughts. Everyday thoughts of death consume my mind. And i so badly want to die, and be away from this world. But i don't have a bad a life, i have a wonderful family, lovely friends, and i get relatively good grades at school. So why is it that these feelings of death are so strong. It's like every second when I am left alone it is all that i can think about. I dread going back to school, having to pretend I'm happy, and putting up with people judging me. The truth is, i don't even know if they're judging me, i am just so paranoid. And just sitting here typing this is freaking me out and i am so confused this probably doesn't even make sense. I just need to know why i am thinking these things. Is this depression? Because sometimes i feel happy when i am distracted, it is just when i am alone i feel so lost and like i want to die. Someone please, i just really want answers.