I am 17.. I've had a lot of things happen to me in the past.. I remember being happy maybe 6 years ago.. now I don;t have severe SA.. it is mostly my thoughts that persecute me even when I am alone...I am a perfectionist.. I guess most SAers are..
dunno how to get this down...
I used to be funny.. for a while.. then all my illnesses kicked in.. as I'm informed humor cannot be lost, and it should come back.. but what's killing me is that it has been two years. since I have been "normally" funny.and because of a remark made by my stupid therapist..I now doubt I was ever funny.. it feels like a piece of me has been ripped out.. it seems so unreachable again..the doubt thoughts are killing me..
then intelligence...I remember while I was living in america, till the age of 9.. I was the most intelligent amoung my classmates... no offense to the americans on this site.. but they weren;t that smart I am pretty good at languages..I learned spanish only from watching tv.. so I console myself..but I have the need to be above average intelligent..I freak out when someone is smarter than me.. In class when we discuss a book or something. I have no thoughts coming to me...and some of my classmates say the smartest things...it really gets to me..
personality in general: I fear I have no personality of my own...like everything was copied or that I just don;t .. iunno..every single person I know, younger than me has a personality...I don;t have many interests.. I am not rly talented...
yesterday in school: a girl was asked on psych class. what are ur capabilities.. she said I don't have any.. and she didn;t care:O why can;t I be like that..
depression: it has seemed to consume me the past week..I haven;t gone to school today.. I fear my grades.. failing.. everything.. I have no motivation.. and school is really hard..
SAers: I see most of u as very talented individuals...and no one like me...
IS THERE ANYONE ON HERE WHO HAS APPARENTLY NO TALENTS AND DOESN'T KNOW WHO HE IS, HIS PERSONALITY...
dunno how to get this down...
I used to be funny.. for a while.. then all my illnesses kicked in.. as I'm informed humor cannot be lost, and it should come back.. but what's killing me is that it has been two years. since I have been "normally" funny.and because of a remark made by my stupid therapist..I now doubt I was ever funny.. it feels like a piece of me has been ripped out.. it seems so unreachable again..the doubt thoughts are killing me..
then intelligence...I remember while I was living in america, till the age of 9.. I was the most intelligent amoung my classmates... no offense to the americans on this site.. but they weren;t that smart I am pretty good at languages..I learned spanish only from watching tv.. so I console myself..but I have the need to be above average intelligent..I freak out when someone is smarter than me.. In class when we discuss a book or something. I have no thoughts coming to me...and some of my classmates say the smartest things...it really gets to me..
personality in general: I fear I have no personality of my own...like everything was copied or that I just don;t .. iunno..every single person I know, younger than me has a personality...I don;t have many interests.. I am not rly talented...
yesterday in school: a girl was asked on psych class. what are ur capabilities.. she said I don't have any.. and she didn;t care:O why can;t I be like that..
depression: it has seemed to consume me the past week..I haven;t gone to school today.. I fear my grades.. failing.. everything.. I have no motivation.. and school is really hard..
SAers: I see most of u as very talented individuals...and no one like me...
IS THERE ANYONE ON HERE WHO HAS APPARENTLY NO TALENTS AND DOESN'T KNOW WHO HE IS, HIS PERSONALITY...