Horatio
Well-known member
my panic attacks are getting steadily worse and Im not sure what I should do about them
for the last ten hours Ive felt like Im about to have a heart attack and it just seems to keep getting worse. I can barely breathe and cant stop shaking.
its probably all me own fault, I've been driving myself pretty hard to be succesful at work and have been making a lot of efforts to try to meet people, all of which has made me even more stressed.
every morning I sit on the bus to work surrounded by people, all the time trying to resist the urge to scream or smash a window to escape. at work I find it hard to even say what I want to say to my colleauges which is a major concern especially when im expected to be an active participant at meetings with up to 15 people and am required to negotiate with people via international phone calls
Ive kept pushing myself, refusing to let this blasted condition win but it is getting absolutely rediculas. Im now not getting to sleep until about 4am and have to get up just after 7 to get to work where I sip energy drinks and pretend I had a whole nights sleep.
all day every day I feel like Im on the verge of having a heart attack, at work, in town and at home where I hide in my room afraid that one of my flatmates will knock on my door
Ive spent about $2500 - $3000 on therapy in the last 8 months and am still getting worse and really dont know how long I can keep this up. I know we should all be strong and keep going, keep trying to meet people and keep trying to get a career off the ground but when do we draw the line?
when is too much? when should i give up? I dont want to have a heart attack as my doctor warned me last year, he said get my anxiety and weight under control or it is a high possibility I will have a heart attack within the next two years
should I slow down? should I give up my career and become a proffesional computer gamer/forum trawler? should I admit defeat and admit Im never gonna meet people and stop putting myself in situations that increase my anxiety levels? should I move back home and lie in bed for six months again? should I be admitting myself into a hospital? should I go out with a bang?
argh
for the last ten hours Ive felt like Im about to have a heart attack and it just seems to keep getting worse. I can barely breathe and cant stop shaking.
its probably all me own fault, I've been driving myself pretty hard to be succesful at work and have been making a lot of efforts to try to meet people, all of which has made me even more stressed.
every morning I sit on the bus to work surrounded by people, all the time trying to resist the urge to scream or smash a window to escape. at work I find it hard to even say what I want to say to my colleauges which is a major concern especially when im expected to be an active participant at meetings with up to 15 people and am required to negotiate with people via international phone calls
Ive kept pushing myself, refusing to let this blasted condition win but it is getting absolutely rediculas. Im now not getting to sleep until about 4am and have to get up just after 7 to get to work where I sip energy drinks and pretend I had a whole nights sleep.
all day every day I feel like Im on the verge of having a heart attack, at work, in town and at home where I hide in my room afraid that one of my flatmates will knock on my door
Ive spent about $2500 - $3000 on therapy in the last 8 months and am still getting worse and really dont know how long I can keep this up. I know we should all be strong and keep going, keep trying to meet people and keep trying to get a career off the ground but when do we draw the line?
when is too much? when should i give up? I dont want to have a heart attack as my doctor warned me last year, he said get my anxiety and weight under control or it is a high possibility I will have a heart attack within the next two years
should I slow down? should I give up my career and become a proffesional computer gamer/forum trawler? should I admit defeat and admit Im never gonna meet people and stop putting myself in situations that increase my anxiety levels? should I move back home and lie in bed for six months again? should I be admitting myself into a hospital? should I go out with a bang?
argh