Whats the point anymore

[PrincessKitty]

Whats the point in living anymore

I know i have been posting a lot of posts recently its only because I'm frustrated!
My only friends are online (and its hard to get money when I want to see them)

I hardly see my family... I haven't seen my dad since I was 13 years old, its only because he can't be arsed to see me. I never see my sister or my niece.
I hardly see my two uncles or my grandma..

The only person who I see is my mother who I live with.

The only thing that keeps me going is that I'm at uni and doing music and I play the guitar and I sing.
But I have no friends (other than online).. I never see my family.

So whats the point... I might as well give up.. :crying:

 

[Marc7]

You mean give up as in killing yourself?

 

[PrincessKitty]

You mean give up as in killing yourself?

yeahh... i don't see whats the point anymore.. i don't like the life the way im leading.. i just want to leave this life :crying:

 

[Marc7]

yeahh... i don't see whats the point anymore.. i don't like the life the way im leading.. i just want to leave this life :crying:

No! Don't leave this earth yet you just have to think of how your mother would feel or your sibling especially if you have young siblings. I can relate to you because I use think of suicide a lot but now I don't think of it as much because I guess my medication is working and I think of how my family and my youngest sibling would feel but I think I'm indirectly killing myself by not taking care of my lack of motivation for going to the doctor to see if I have high blood pressure and cholesterol and because I been swallowing gum lately.Btw I you need someone to talk to you can talk to me if you want .

 

[PrincessKitty]

No! Don't leave this earth yet you just have to think of how your mother would feel or your sibling especially if you have young siblings. I can relate to you because I use think of suicide a lot but now I don't think of it as much because I guess my medication is working and I think of how my family and my youngest sibling would feel but I think I'm indirectly killing myself by not taking care of my lack of motivation for going to the doctor to see if I have high blood pressure and cholesterol and because I been swallowing gum lately.Btw I you need someone to talk to you can talk to me if you want .

well i guess your lucky you and your sibling got along. me and sister never have. and i don't have any other brothers or sisters.
I don't know what to do.. i do go to the doctors and i do take medication

 

[Marc7]

well i guess your lucky you and your sibling got along. me and sister never have. and i don't have any other brothers or sisters.
I don't know what to do.. i do go to the doctors and i do take medication

I rarely talk to my siblings though and my little sister always has a attitude with me idk why though. Wait how old is your sister?

Just think how it would impact your mother or whoever is close to you. You take medication for what (like what condition, not trying to be rude)?

 

[PrincessKitty]

I rarely talk to my siblings though and my little sister always has a attitude with me idk why though. Wait how old is your sister?

Just think how it would impact your mother or whoever is close to you. You take medication for what (like what condition, not trying to be rude)?

Its fine I take medication for my anxiety and depression.
Same here she always has attitude to me too. I'm 21 and shes 25 so shes 4 years older than me

 

[Marc7]

Its fine I take medication for my anxiety and depression.
Same here she always has attitude to me too. I'm 21 and shes 25 so shes 4 years older than me

I think I take medication for my depression, ocd, and sad.
Wow what a coincidence lol. My sister a lot of really younger than me. Are you close to your mother?

 

[PrincessKitty]

I think I take medication for my depression, ocd, and sad.
Wow what a coincidence lol. My sister a lot of really younger than me. Are you close to your mother?

yeahh im close to my mum.. but if i told her this. i don't want to hurt her feelings.
wow that is strange

 

[Marc7]

yeahh im close to my mum.. but if i told her this. i don't want to hurt her feelings.
wow that is strange

Yea then think how devastated it would be to her if you killed yourself. Yea it would probably make her worried to death no pun intended. Do you have therapist?
What is strange?

 

[PrincessKitty]

Yea then think how devastated it would be to her if you killed yourself. Yea it would probably make her worried to death no pun intended. Do you have therapist?

What is strange?

It's strange how the person has similar that my sister is older than me lol. Sorry not thinking straight.

Yeahh I did that before and I made her worry.. I don't want to her to put her though that again. I do have a therapist.. I take EMDR (it helps with my memories)
So I could try with that again


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[Steiner]

Yeah you shouldn't try to kill yourself. I attempted it and it just made stuff worse and now it just makes me look like that idiot that failed to kill himself.

 

[Marc7]

It's strange how the person has similar that my sister is older than me lol. Sorry not thinking straight.

Yeahh I did that before and I made her worry.. I don't want to her to put her though that again. I do have a therapist.. I take EMDR (it helps with my memories)
So I could try with that again


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I'm sorry but its hard to read that that first sentence, you said it is strange how the person that your sister is older than me, can you repeat that?

You should talk about it with your therapist and psychiatrist. If taking EMDR helps you, you should do it.

What is tapatalk?

 

[greggy]

Dont do it!! You're life is ahead of you im guessing you're real life hasn't even started yet, please dont miss out on the happiness the future will bring for you and the people you will touch. I will not give up, I cant give up.

 

[oddOne]

Its fine I take medication for my anxiety and depression.
Same here she always has attitude to me too. I'm 21 and shes 25 so shes 4 years older than me

People go about this (i.e. trying to prevent the suicide of another) the wrong way. Telling someone "hey, no, don't do it!" doesn't ever help . . . especially when it is someone [like the OP] who actually brings it up as a topic of conversation on an internet message board, which essentially means they're still processing the idea of expediting their own demise . . . NOT announcing a decision to actually do so.

To the OP, this obviously isn't the product of a few bad days/months/years. Consequently, it isn't going away anytime soon . . . but it can sort of "fade" from the forefront of your mind by viewing it as a very permanent way of never experiencing anything good [or bad] ever again.

Consider that . . . I mean REALLY give some thought as to what death means and what culmination of circumstances has led you to considering this course of action.

This is how I've approached life for the past decade . . . and, so far, it [along with pharmacology] has led to me feeling that other "options" should be extensively explored before I make a final decision as to whether life is worth the pain it costs.