What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?

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Rise Against

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Ive kind of already mentioned this in another post but lately ive been getting these crazy, uncontrollable urges to do really stupid things. Like today i came home for lunch and was cooking macaroni and cheese, and i got this intense urge touch the red hot stove. And i also got an urge to go really fast in my car, i went like 75 on a 30. When i get these urges my whole mind changes and i lose all of my common sense and find it nearly impossible to control the urges, so of coarse, i touched the stove and now i have a huge blister on my hand in the shape of a ring reminding me of how stupid i was. Ive also gotten urges to eat butter, eat chap stick, eat glue sticks, stick my fingers in cigarette lighters in the car (like every time i get in my car), stick paperclips in electrical outlets and lots of other stupid stuff like that. And i ALWAYS have the urge to eat lots and lots of sugar, sometimes with a spoon. and lots of other stupid stuff like that. Im not depressed and i dont do the self destructive behavior to make myself feel better. And i dont do it to show off because i only get these urges when im alone.

Im pretty sure im a little OCD because i have to do everything in patterns although im not organized or a germ phob. But are these urges caused by OCD or by something else? and BTW The urges have been getting more frequent and much more intense lately.
sorry this is kind of a double post but its really starting to scare me.
 
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recluse

recluse

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Please be careful when driving so fast in a 30 zone. You have to think of children on the streets. I like to drive fast sometimes but i always stick to the limit in places where it's likely to have people walking.
 
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madmike

madmike

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Dude, the pain means don't do it. And sticking your finger in a cigarette lighter is bloody painful! I did it once when i was about 10 and it still stung after a week (as well as the skin on the tip of my finger going a really sickly white colour !) Don't give in to these silly urges :p
 
Lea

Lea

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I had something like this as a child, for example I HAD TO jump from the attic or from some height (once I got badly injured), or from very high to the water etc., or HAD TO do things I knew were dangerous or self destructive. I got also tempted to cut my hair (just for the feeling of doing it) and once I did, then I was crying because I looked like idiot. Once I stuck beads into my nose and nearly suffocated myself. When I was very small, I used to throw all tedy animals from my bed on the floor, then I was sorry for them and cried and called the familymembers to pick them up because they hurt. When they did it, I took the animals and threw them back on the floor :). I knew they would hurt but HAD TO do it. It´s like a stupid temptation and you don´t have peace of mind until you do it. I think I am a bit compulsive but perhaps it´s normal for everybody to have this to certain extent, I don´t know. As long as it doesn´t get out of hand.. Anyway there are pills for OCD which I believe might help.
 
Anubis

Anubis

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Your being OCD because you associate doing those things with experiencing life to it's fullest (even if it means being hurt in the process). This is a pleasurable experience for a lot of people, sometimes overriding the extreme pain that results from the experience.

My suggestion would be to convince yourself that you're not "missing out on life" by sticking that clip in the electrical socket, etc. Don't feel like you have to obligate yourself to trying "everything" lest you never have the opportunity to ever try it again. Also, start associating extreme negativity to all your OCD tasks (i.e. make them seem like a severe waste of time and resources). Harder done than said, but repetition helps. It's what got you into your OCD habits in the first place.
 
gsmax5

gsmax5

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I think everyone is like that. I always get urges (and more so when I was a kid) to do dumb or dangerous things; like the things you mentioned. And, if I didn't do the thing, it would bother me all the time until I did it.
 
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