What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger

[CosmicNeurotica]

I feel like I am the opposite of this.
I've lived a sheltered non-existent life with social phobia, with not a lot of experience. And because of this, it's made me weak.
I wish I could live and experience the bad times of life so I can get to the good.
As it is now, it's always just plain blah

 

[coyote]

I feel like I am the opposite of this.
I've lived a sheltered non-existent life with social phobia, with not a lot of experience. And because of this, it's made me weak.
I wish I could live and experience the bad times of life so I can get to the good.
As it is now, it's always just plain blah

yes, I think I know what you mean

that's why I chose a certain path at one point

it's like I knew that it would only cause me pain

and it did - and I feel like I experienced the "other side"



Only now, I'm struggling to find my way back

sometimes I wish I'd just stayed where I was

 

[Kiwong]

Like I said in the apathy thread facing my own mortality was the thing that blew apathy out of the water for me.

I wrote this on my blog:

I can almost sense what I was going through then, the continuous pain, the growing anxiety and I feel it in my guts as I write about it. There is a horrible pain I feel even now deep in my soul at the memory, but I also feel a strange fondness of the recall of a long battle and what I went through and what I achieved despite everything. I think, well done mate, you showed courage and determination. Well done mate, learning to swim, that was something. And in learning to swim, of beating knee pain and panic, I learnt to truly live. When faced with your own mortaility you are forced to fight and to find answers just to survive. Apathy goes out the window, and you realise how hard you want to fight to live. Living is all about the up and downs and in betweens. You know you’ve really lived when you ride that rollercoaster and have survived the dark days and come out the other end stronger. Through being challenged by the nightmares life threw at me, I learnt to fight, and to run again and to live my brilliant running days, that mean more than ever to me because of what I had to go through to live them.

 

[CosmicNeurotica]

I know some will argue with me and say otherwise, but sometimes I wish I had gone through a rough childhood and been abused, or seen some **** in my life so that I may be stronger because of it.

I only say this because it makes me unable to sympathize with most people, who have even had jobs and been fired.
I want to be able to say yeah I know what it feels like. I'm with you.
But because I haven't been through a lot of things in life, it makes me stale and unable to be a friend. Unable to be there and connect with people.

It's like I always say, all of life is a catch 22. You have to go through the experiences and understand them to have more experiences.

Because for all of us, what is it that allows us to connect with others and have something to say?
Our experience. And the more dramatic the life, the more likely you are to have friends and others to connect with.

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

None of my suffering has made me stronger. It's worn me down to a point that I don't have it in me to continue anymore. I'm much too fragile-- or really; I've already broken.

I've heard so many stories of people coming through some horrible situations and being better people and stronger people because of the trials they had to go through but it has never worked out that way for me.
The trials I've been through have used up all of my energy just getting through them; leaving nothing afterwards to live off of.

 

[CosmicNeurotica]

None of my suffering has made me stronger. It's worn me down to a point that I don't have it in me to continue anymore. I'm much too fragile-- or really; I've already broken.

I've heard so many stories of people coming through some horrible situations and being better people and stronger people because of the trials they had to go through but it has never worked out that way for me.
The trials I've been through have used up all of my energy just getting through them; leaving nothing afterwards to live off of.

I'm sorry that's happened to you.
Sometimes I feel the same though. I mean, I guess you can say I've done a few things involving society that I'm not proud of. I was so desperate in life, that I'd drink 2 40's a night, then walk 2 miles to the bar to drink more, sometimes on the way knocking on someones door and asking them to be my friend.
Yeah, doesn't work out so well.
The only thing I really learned from it is that I'm pathetic, and going about it that way just makes me look even worse, so I stay home now.
In that way you could say that living has only made it worse.

But a lot of it I guess has to do with the people around you, and the people you come into contact with. If you never have influential people near you, I guess the live hard stuff never really matters in the end.

But I guess what I mean to say is, the more you've been through in life, the more you can relate to, and the more you can have friends or just acquaintances in life. The more you're able to function I guess I should say.
Because even if no one wants to be your friend, at least you have a story to tell. And as long as you have a story to tell, someone out in the world will want to hear it.

BTW: I too am curious to know what path Coyote has ventured

 

[BlueDays]

None of my suffering has made me stronger. It's worn me down to a point that I don't have it in me to continue anymore. I'm much too fragile-- or really; I've already broken.

I've heard so many stories of people coming through some horrible situations and being better people and stronger people because of the trials they had to go through but it has never worked out that way for me.
The trials I've been through have used up all of my energy just getting through them; leaving nothing afterwards to live off of.

Well said!!
It has not had that effect on me either:/

 

[scoobycrawler]

sometimes what doesn't kill me makes me want to kill myself if it doesn't make me stronger
I just need a reason for my suffering.