i regret that i didn't use my teenage years in a proper way. i should have traveled, met new people and broaden my horizons. instead i just sat at home and did nothing worthwhile because of my fear. Sometimes thinking about this makes me feel like there's just emptiness where memories of my teenage experiences should be.
It will be hard to catch up now. i'm graduating next year and when i'll be working it will be harder to meet many people. i'm afraid i'm going to be stuck in a rut, in some boring life. i think i could have had a much more interesting life if not for my social phobia.