richkid
Well-known member
Reading up on things trying to understand the whole socail phiobia thing hasn't cleared anything up for me I feel indifferent. It has however given me a chance to look at things differnetlly and with some understanding of how to cope.
The strange thing is that I've allaways persued to be a confident outgoing persons. trying so hard and focusing on how I was always wasn't as good as the next person made me feel worthless. I withdrew, which we all know makes it worse.
Now though i'm left wondering what it is I really want, which is good in a way. I don't what to be the quite one that misses out because i'm to scared to give it ago. In the same way I don't want to be the most confidenent peson and try to be a prefectionist.
All I want to be is myself, and I don't know what that is. This is the hadest problem to solve. Not how to think poistively, or what meds will work best etc. The one thing that entails more than just how you behave and think is being true to who you are.
I don't want to be the best, the most confident, i want to be the best at what i choose to be, and of my best ability.
What do you really want?
The strange thing is that I've allaways persued to be a confident outgoing persons. trying so hard and focusing on how I was always wasn't as good as the next person made me feel worthless. I withdrew, which we all know makes it worse.
Now though i'm left wondering what it is I really want, which is good in a way. I don't what to be the quite one that misses out because i'm to scared to give it ago. In the same way I don't want to be the most confidenent peson and try to be a prefectionist.
All I want to be is myself, and I don't know what that is. This is the hadest problem to solve. Not how to think poistively, or what meds will work best etc. The one thing that entails more than just how you behave and think is being true to who you are.
I don't want to be the best, the most confident, i want to be the best at what i choose to be, and of my best ability.
What do you really want?