I've been on medication for my panic disorder w/ agoraphobia for years and I haven't found anything that's helped. I'm actually going to give my psychiatrist an earful next visit because shes been prescribing me benzodiazepines for sleep for the past two years, even though it's widely agreed upon by medical professionals that these drugs should not be used in this way (or in any way) for more than six weeks. I've become addicted to clonazepam and the last two years of my life have been a fog because of this medication. I feel like a fucking guinea pig,g after all the medications I've been given to "see if they would help." Psychiatrists don't even know what they're doing when it comes to us. They just go by the book, starting us out with various antidepressants, and if they don't work, maybe some beta blockers and some benzodiazepines, if necessary.
Personally, I'm tired of all that. I don't want to be addicted to benzos the rest of my life. I'm moving to California to get some "herbal" treatment. At least I know that people have ingested cannabis for thousands of years with no harm done. Who knows what these other drugs are doing to our bodies. They do prescribe medical marijuana for any chronic or disabling condition that interferes with the normal daily activities. I've been talking to California doctors and they claim I'm a prime candidate for medical pot. I'm on disability because of my condition, and that right there along with a few prescription bottles is usually enough to get you medical pot in California. I've also got years of medical records to back up my condition and the fact that nothing the psychiatrist is giving me has helped much at all.
When I smoke I feel like I can take on the world and I see everything in a different perspective, almost completely forgetting about my anxieties. Most people don't know it, but the type of pot u smoke can have a big effect on whether it helps anxiety. There are two types of bud: Sativa: heady buzz thats stimulating, and Indica: more body buzz and sedating. It's been found that hybrid crossbreeds of the two strains are the most effective at reducing anxiety.
As you can see I've reached the end of my rope as far as treatment goes. I've boiled it down to, be addicted to pills and pay out the nose for doctor visits for the rest of my life (not working), become an alcoholic (however,I want to live, not drown my sorrows in a bottle), or seek out a compassionate doctor in California to prescribe me medical cannabis. The latter is the safest of the three options, and was in pharmacopoeias around the globe until the racist U.S. government (at the time) decided to use it as a way to try to get Mexicans out of our country. I will not stand for this propoganda anymore, and neither should you.
....I may be crazy but its just somethin to think about....I'm acting on it soon...
Peace
