warning, alot of profanity in this one. open with care

[Chilling__Echo]

well it's 8:30 on a wednesday night and it's been a week since i've here from the guy i met on the internet that i met for the first time when we went on a date last... i don't know what day last week. and we've barely talked online since.

he works alot. and it's exam time. did i mention he's a GREAT GREAT guy?? i thought we both had a great time - i did!! and i got the signals from him that he was feelin it too. i stayed at his appartment til 3:30 in the morning - we didn't even see the movie we were supposed to go to! and we just talked.

i can take a fucking "no". just don't ignore me. i feel like a stalker b/c i've invited him to do things and he either says it's a good idea and something comes up or he isn't online anymore.

fuck fuck FUCK

what the fuck are you thinking?? if you want me to leave you alone TELL ME. don't leave me hanging!!! i can move on. i'll be ok! just don't fucking kiss my forehead and OFFER to massage me and cuddle and all that sappy shit if you aren't interested!!


i'm so tired of being single. 3 years is a long time and i got used to the comfort and it's been 6 months since i've had a bf and i knowi have better things to bitch about but right now it's the only thing on my mind b/c dammit i'm fucking frustrated.

why the hell isnt it easier to find a fucking job so i can get my own fucking apartment with one fucking cat so i can live by my fucking self and live my own fucking life and do my own fucking thing.

if there was a scream button on here i'd hit it.

arrrrrrrgh!!!

i'm frustrated with everything right now. that's not all that's going on, it's all i feel like bitching about right now. so there. i'm done. over and out.

 

[4myself]

Wow, I just learnt a new word :wink:

Seriously, Chilling, this guy sounds like he doesnt know what he wants, its a real wtf situation. I reckon you should play it 8) and go on some dates with other guys and just enjoy the fact you can. This guy, if he is interested will have to make a play for you if he sees he might lose you to someone else.

Good luck with it!.

 

[Chilling__Echo]

yeah, you're prolly right. i'll feel better in the morning. i just feel like whining i guess. it's just been one of those days!!


thanks though, i appreciate it

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

sounds kinda like my situation not too long ago... i met the perfect guy(or so i thought)...he gave me more attention than anyone ever had before, he told me he loved me(liar!), we spent every weekend together and every weekday he called me multiple times, told me i was beautiful every day(another lie), everything seemed perfect...for once in my life i thought i had actually found happiness and somebody who really cared about me(he even mentioned helping me move to the town where he lives so we could be closer--he was going to pay a big portion of my rent at an apartment and he was going to get me a job with him...so he said anyway...he was full of shit), but i was wrong. all of a sudden he just decides to start ignoring me. kinda like you said, i can take being turned down...i would have understood(still would have been disappointed but at least i would be more understanding if the asshole would TELL me what was going on) if he had just called me or emailed me and told me he found someone else, or that things just weren't working out for him...but noooo...instead he just decides to never speak to me again. The last night I heard from him was a Sunday night...we had spent the weekend together. When I got home I called him and before we hung up he told me he loved me, missed me, and that he would call me the next morning before I left for work...and I haven't heard from him since. Immediately when I didn't hear from him, I knew something was wrong...cause when he said he was going to call, he always did...no matter what. So by that night I knew he was gone forever...I still tried calling him though, and emailing him...he never would answer my calls or even my emails. And he still signs online EVERY day....actually he signs on alot more now than he did when we were dating. He was hardly online at all then... So I know he's either found someone else or he's looking for someone else. Probably both. Stupid asshole :evil: :twisted: :x 8O
I have nude pictures of him(he was an idiot for sending those to me if he's going to treat me like shit). I'm seriously thinking about posting them ALL OVER the internet to get back at him...possibly on gay personals sites and posting his email address, too. People shouldn't fuck with me if they dont want me to do something mean back. I'm evil. :twisted: :evil: So I want to do something to get back at him...

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

and in my final email to him, since he wouldn't answer my calls...i told him to just reply saying SOMETHING(anything) if he ever cared at all. and he never did reply. so that proves that he lied about EVERYTHING. i wish i could see him now. i'd pick up something heavy and knock him out with it. :evil: :x

 

[Chilling__Echo]

damn girl, that's rough, i don't blame you for wanting to kill him. that's so insensitive :roll:

you don't need him, anyone that can drop you that quick had other motives. i'm sorry darlin, there will be someone else in your future, hindsight 20/20 :x

hope everything gets better, i just hate he's out to do it to another girl...


(((hugs)))

 

[blight]

you girls need to find an SA guy, we're nicer.

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

I don't want to kill him. I want to make him suffer...for a very long time. He mentioned tying his best friend's girlfriend naked to a tree because she cheated on him...that's what I think he deserves to have done to him...and more.
Thanks... *hugs* for you too...and I hope everything gets better for you, with your situation too. and yeah I wish I could somehow warn the other girls. I hope he finds one he really likes, the way I liked him...and I hope she does to him what he done to me. :x
There's no one else in my future though...I'm meant to be alone.

 

[Boundless]

you girls need to find an SA guy, we're nicer.

I like to think we actualy are nicer and more understanding and careing

 

[young]

there's too much estrogen in here. must add male hormones... without getting mutilated. sorry to hear about ya'll luck with the guys. but sooner or later you'll find a nice one. you'll just have to weed thru the crappy ones.

 

[Chilling__Echo]

he'll get what he deserves in the end. what comes around goes around and he'll be hurting.

and there's plenty of others out there. you don't see it now, but there's always more people. he was interested in you, there will be others too. you're a down to earth intelligent chick - you'll find someone. don't sweat it.

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

i hope you're right, because he deserves to hurt.

i know there are other people out there; i just don't see the point in trying anymore...it all works out the same in the end anyway. the guy ends up hating me for no apparent reason and then i never hear from him again. what's the use in making more enemies when i have more than i can count now anyway?

 

[Boundless]

i hope you're right, because he deserves to hurt.

i know there are other people out there; i just don't see the point in trying anymore...it all works out the same in the end anyway. the guy ends up hating me for no apparent reason and then i never hear from him again. what's the use in making more enemies when i have more than i can count now anyway?

Thats life,you just need to keep going,you will find some one who truely loves you.And no more of this "im ugly" crap as your not and anyone onthe site will tell you that.

 

[Chilling__Echo]

maybe you need a break, the right one will come to you when you're not looking. but you shouldn't hold back for fear that things will work out negatively, you've got your whole life ahead of you and you have a lot of potential. you're not some troll that everyone hates. i'm sure you mean the world to at least one person on this earth.


and thanks young - and you guys are probably right, at least the guys here have the insider view into a woman's mind, after reading this rant, there's not much else to know haha. and everyone here has such a big heart

 

[young]

i hope you're right, because he deserves to hurt.

i know there are other people out there; i just don't see the point in trying anymore...it all works out the same in the end anyway. the guy ends up hating me for no apparent reason and then i never hear from him again. what's the use in making more enemies when i have more than i can count now anyway?

Thats life,you just need to keep going,you will find some one who truely loves you.And no more of this "im ugly" crap as your not and anyone onthe site will tell you that.

I concur! listen to boundless he has infinite wisdom!

oops. i'm a little slow tonite.

 

[lostboi]

I'v said it before and I'll say it again. I'v pretty much given up on the whole damn I dea of meeting someone.
I thought I actually had a date the other night and she completely flaked.
So.. fuck that noize I'm not even trying anymore...

I'm sorry Chilling. It sounded like things were going in the right direction for you. There's more fish in the sea like you say. though personally I'm about sick of sea food.

And as far as littlemiss is concerned..You can do better..and yeah I don't blame you for wanting to post his picture on gay porn sites..lol that would be kind after the way he treated you..

 

[Chilling__Echo]

hey, thanks. i'm with you. me and you can stick with... non seafood food for a while. we'll all find someone one day dammit. argh!

sorry you got ditched. that's really rude, she could have at least let you know. grr

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

Thats life,you just need to keep going,you will find some one who truely loves you.And no more of this "im ugly" crap as your not and anyone onthe site will tell you that.

\

Nobody could love me.

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

maybe you need a break, the right one will come to you when you're not looking. but you shouldn't hold back for fear that things will work out negatively, you've got your whole life ahead of you and you have a lot of potential. you're not some troll that everyone hates. i'm sure you mean the world to at least one person on this earth.

I might as well be a troll...I feel like one, with the way I'm always treated.

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

And as far as littlemiss is concerned..You can do better..and yeah I don't blame you for wanting to post his picture on gay porn sites..lol that would be kind after the way he treated you..

yep, he probably wouldnt even care though...or he would get back at me with something much worse. but then again, i dont know...he wont even speak to me now or acknowledge that i exist in any way. but if i made him mad, he might...