AlwaysUnknown said:
Whenever I have to go somewhere, I usually pick a time to go, when I know not that many people are going to be out. It makes it easier when school's back in for the other kids, because I don't have to tip toe around them all of the time.
In school I had trouble concentrating, it didn't matter what subject, or what we were doing. I remember for this one project we had to make something that could support an egg without breaking it. You had to bring it in, and climb up this huge ladder, and drop the egg into your project to see if it would break. I thought for sure I was going to die, right there. Lol.
Now if I'm trying to do work in front of other people, I usually keep my head down as if I don't even know they're sitting there. I don't know any methods that maybe able to help with that, but I usually TRY to ignore everybody. :\
Hey, I can completely relate to you. I am very much the same way now. I go to college right now and have the same difficulties.
I am several years into school now and it did not bother me initially. I used to always keep to myself and just 'zone out' and pretend like I did not see anybody around me. I would just let people come to me and speak as they noticed me.
The problem with this is people took this for cockiness because I knew a lot of people and they would often think I was ignoring them. :?
So I tried to start forcing myself to pay more attention to my environment and the people around me. All this did was make me a nervous wreck. I became overly conscious of everybody around me and this just amplified my SA.
Being either of those ways sucks, but I think I'd much rather be able to zone everybody out and just pretend like I didn't see them again. However I am finding myself having difficulty doing so because I don't want to seem like a loser at school I guess. So many people seem to know me that I don't even know apparently and I don't even know what to do.
My SA has gotten so bad to the point that I find myself shaking or really tense often now. When I am in class I have much difficulty on focusing on what the professor is speaking on. I am so nervous, especially when there are others that I know in the class that I feel I will have to speak to.
As silly as these things may sound, that's my life. I try explaining this to parents and they really don't get it at all, haha.
All we can do is fight through it I guess, as hard as it is. I wish there was a better answer than that, but at to this moment I have not found it. 8)