where i live sexual expression is condemned (I get laughed at and shunned by people at school, and parents think I'm sick and evil and tell me god will send me to hell). Yet at the same time if there is no sexual expression there is also condemnation (you get called fag and people laugh and treat you inferior and don't take a word you say seriously, they just laugh and mock). Yet I'm also being told by others that I'm a loser and a freak (because I'm quiet and shy) and ugly and dopey (I've got a rubbery face that distorts really easily into unco-looking) and they say no one likes me and they say that no girl will ever like me because I'm a stupid f'ing this and that and the same abuse occurs because I am not involved in any relationship. Yes, even girls at school who said I was "cute" and "hot" would suddenly turn on me for no apparent reason. I am frigging sick and tired of this crap. from people. Oh yes, these people will frigging pay.
I am backed up in a corner being rejected for wanting sexual expression but also rejected for not doing it. So here I am with nothing left to do except lash out. Yeah I am repressed I may as well be living in 19th century Vienna. Anyone know what to do and I don't know how much more rejection I can take.
I am backed up in a corner being rejected for wanting sexual expression but also rejected for not doing it. So here I am with nothing left to do except lash out. Yeah I am repressed I may as well be living in 19th century Vienna. Anyone know what to do and I don't know how much more rejection I can take.