Two weeks of feeling “normal”, was pretty great

TableFor1

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Four weeks ago, I was visiting my cousin and she has a small, 1 year old dog, a Terrier mix (Earnhardt aka Ernie, is what I call him) and he kept leaving the yard. Sadly, she was thinking about finding him a new home where he’d be safer. I’ve been so lonely, I decided I would take him in, this way he could stay in the family and everyone is happy. He is just SO sweet. The following weekend I picked him up. We went to the beach, the dog park, and long walks or runs twice every morning and night. We were having so much fun and I was getting in better shape to boot! For the first time in so long, he made me feel normal, he filled that emptiness. Within a week and half I was overwhelmed with confidence. I started chatting with people wherever we were and I even asked a guy out for drinks! He said yes! Ernie’s needs overruled my fears completely. I was happy, actually really happy!

The down part. Our happiness was only when I was home. I live in a condo alone (far from the one acre lot he came from) and he was used to people being around most of they day, if not the whole day. He would cry for a bit when I would leave for work and I had horrible guilt the entire day. I bought him the “Potty Patch”, but I couldn’t train him to use it. The poor baby would hold it until I got home, 10 hrs later! This was not working for him – his new living situation was absolutely breaking my heart.

The bitter sweet part. I called my cousin last week to tell her my concerns. She apparently was trying not to call me – she didn’t think she’d miss him as much as she did and would never ask for him back, she knew how I felt about him. It was a no brainer, she took him back home, happily – we both cried. She has taken the extra steps to keep him safer.

I am so thankful for that short time with him. Today is strange though, like time never passed from four weeks ago. I quickly I went back to my old SA ways, with a side of a broken heart - but I know my heart will heal. Knowing he will be loved, happy and healthy means everything to me… It was worth him going home. I just wish I lived closer to them, I really miss that sweet little face.

If you're able to care for an animal, I highly recommend getting one or two.

*Sigh* I just needed to get that off my chest.

I love you Ernie!
 
It's better to have loved and lost than never loved. I'm glad you gained the confidence in life, however short lived it was. Have you thought about getting a different dog?
 

rosewood

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what a nice story, Tablefor1. do you think you might ever look into finding a dog for yourself? one that is trained? you sound like you were a very good owner/parent. :)
 

TableFor1

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Hi rosewood & jc972, If I ever do it again, it will be two shelter dogs for sure. But no time soon. My work is a bit demanding an unpredictable a times. I don't always know when I'll be home :/

It's better to have loved and lost than never loved.
SO TRUE! It was an amazing feeling :)
 
Hi rosewood & jc972, If I ever do it again, it will be two shelter dogs for sure. But no time soon. My work is a bit demanding an unpredictable a times. I don't always know when I'll be home :/


SO TRUE! It was an amazing feeling :)

I'm glad you felt and recognized it :) I had to give away my dog the last time we moved, a blue-brindle pit bull. She was smart and well mannered. She would meet me on the porch when I got home from work and set on my lap till I got in the shower. Then she would stay in the bathroom with me for some reason. Often though she slept in my daughters bed with her much to my annoyance but I knew when my dog was around everybody at my house was safe. I had to walk down in the woods and cry a little when I had to give her away :crying: I never had her tied up or confined because she was such a good guard dog. If a strange car pulled into my driveway she wouldn't let the person out of the car. She just did it, I never taught her to do that. She did attack one guy that was lurking around my neighbors barn and let him go when I got there, he had to go to the hospital and the cops didn't press charges against me for it because he was stealing farm equipment when she mauled him :lol: she got a whole box of dog treats when we got home. I miss her dearly, but she has a good home though and is very well taken care of.
 

TableFor1

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I'm glad you felt and recognized it :) I had to give away my dog the last time we moved, a blue-brindle pit bull. She was smart and well mannered. She would meet me on the porch when I got home from work and set on my lap till I got in the shower. Then she would stay in the bathroom with me for some reason. Often though she slept in my daughters bed with her much to my annoyance but I knew when my dog was around everybody at my house was safe. I had to walk down in the woods and cry a little when I had to give her away :crying: I never had her tied up or confined because she was such a good guard dog. If a strange car pulled into my driveway she wouldn't let the person out of the car. She just did it, I never taught her to do that. She did attack one guy that was lurking around my neighbors barn and let him go when I got there, he had to go to the hospital and the cops didn't press charges against me for it because he was stealing farm equipment when she mauled him :lol: she got a whole box of dog treats when we got home. I miss her dearly, but she has a good home though and is very well taken care of.

*Sniff* She sounds amazing! Good on you giving her all those treats for protecting the neighborhood. Love that story! So happy you were able to find her a good home.
 
I hope you find the happiness again by having a dog(s). I'll go out on a limb here and compare dogs to children; they bring joy and love into lives and depend on parents/masters for care and security, neither will judge and they give all the love they have. Weird analogy, yes, but it just appealed to me for some reason. I say it's a noble thing to adopt pets from a shelter, highly commendable :brindis:
 

laure15

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This is so sweet! I have trouble loving my fellow humans but pets are different. They can be very loyal.
 

this_portrait

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Awww. This story very much reminds me of when I got my cat. A pet certainly does wonders for loneliness, and what's even better is their love is more unconditional, unlike with humans.
 

ImNotMyIllness

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Nice to hear! Well, it doesn't have to completely end. Maybe you can take Ernie out once a week for a walk. I think it would do you both some good.

I hope having drinks with the guy you met worked out or was at least enjoyable. Keep putting yourself out there!
 

daisydaydreamz

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Hi. I wondered if you might have thought about getting a cat (or 2), or even a house-rabbit? I know it's not as social as actually going out to walk a dog but it would still be a furry companion to come home to. These can all use an indoor litter tray so don't need regular access to outside.
We took on a rescue cat a couple of years ago. She is middle aged, set in her ways (a bit like me!) and dislikes other cats. She spends most of the time sleeping, but is happy to come to any of my family for a bit of fuss. We wouldn't be without her now.
If you live on your own a friendly furry welcoming presence (other than a dog) might be just what you need.
 
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