sahxox
Well-known member
I've learnt many strategies to help with my SP over the years but have trouble making myself make an effort to do such things. It's like I ditch myself and go on autopilot, resolved to a state as the 'lone wolf' who just goes with it. If people initiate effort with me, I usually pay it back and am friendly and extend conversation. But half the time this voice in my head is like 'boring' or 'why did they just tell me that?'
It sounds terrible but I cbf'd always being nice to people. I think 'what is the point?' and it takes so much energy. A few times I've mustered up the strength to be sociable and once there, it's so easy. Even now I get this dreaded feeling that 'what is the point, I'll just end up miserable again.'
It extends to all components of my life. What to do for a career - who cares, it takes too much effort. I've resigned to unhappiness. Atm, my life is good, but I still feel it's easy just to survive, opposed to truly being happy and living.
:/
It sounds terrible but I cbf'd always being nice to people. I think 'what is the point?' and it takes so much energy. A few times I've mustered up the strength to be sociable and once there, it's so easy. Even now I get this dreaded feeling that 'what is the point, I'll just end up miserable again.'
It extends to all components of my life. What to do for a career - who cares, it takes too much effort. I've resigned to unhappiness. Atm, my life is good, but I still feel it's easy just to survive, opposed to truly being happy and living.
:/