Dudley
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So after some long thought last night, I've realized that if trust isn't the direct cause of my OCD, it's definitely a trigger now. With a few exceptions, basically everyone close to me has betrayed my trust by lying to me, breaking promises, or being unreliable. A few weeks ago I thought I was seeing things out of the corner of my eye and that scared the hell out of me because it was like I couldn't even trust myself.
All of this has lead to me always saying to myself "it'll be easier if I just do it myself" and never telling anyone anything. It's a horrible feeling, especially when you just want to tell someone how you're feeling but you can't get past the feeling that they're going to stab you in the back.
I know people aren't out to get me and that I can trust the people I care about. I'm working on trust but it's an uphill struggle.
Anyway, has anyone else had experiences with being able to completely trust someone or having your trust betrayed in relation to OCD?
All of this has lead to me always saying to myself "it'll be easier if I just do it myself" and never telling anyone anything. It's a horrible feeling, especially when you just want to tell someone how you're feeling but you can't get past the feeling that they're going to stab you in the back.
I know people aren't out to get me and that I can trust the people I care about. I'm working on trust but it's an uphill struggle.
Anyway, has anyone else had experiences with being able to completely trust someone or having your trust betrayed in relation to OCD?