Anyone else done good....in anything?...at all?....lol
Ok, this is nothing to do with phones, but anyway...
Well, 3 wks ago I decided to go along to a jui-jitsu class, which I found out about thru my fresher’s fair. It took A LOT of courage for me to decide this, believe me, but i used to do karate and loved it, so i wanted to start up martial arts again. I didn't want my phobia to make me miss out on the opportunity again.
I had already missed the 1st session and I was worried about being the ‘newbie’. The day started off really badly cos first I went to the wrong building :? (it was being held in another college which is part of my uni) and searched all round, must’ve looked like a right weirdo, couldn’t find anything about the class anywhere, so i started to panic. Then I re-checked the address and realised that it was at a completely different building, which is also part of the same college. D'oh :?!
Anyways, so I finally find the place and walk in anxiously, and there are these guys (no girls!), about 5 of them, already training. The leader (called ‘Sensai’) asks if I’m here to join and then points me in the direction of the ladies so I can change. Well, I nearly legged it after that, cos I thought ‘no-one knows me, I could just escape now and I’d never see those ppl again’, but then I thought, ‘hey, I’ve come all this way (it’s in London) and it took me bloody ages to find the place, why give up now?’, so I got changed and went down to join them. And, guess what, I actually had a good time! I learnt some great stuff, and found out that half of the guys were new themselves and they weren’t intimidating or anything. They were very helpful when I got stuff wrong, which was quite frequent! :roll:
The anxiety started kicking in again, when afterwards they said that they usually all go and have a drink at a nearby pub and asked if I wanted to join them. Since I was sort of put on the spot, I said yes, but I was thinking ‘help!’ 8O. But I actually did ok and was able to hold down some conversations. And I had my drink there, which helped cos I get a really dry mouth when I’m anxious or stressed. It wasn’t alcohol tho, which is even better cos it meant that ppl were actually talking to ‘me’ (normally I need a few drinks to get me relaxed and talking).
Oh, and when I went along the next wk, there were a few more new ppl, inc some girls, which made me feel a lot better. So I’m gonna try and stick it out, cos I think I will benefit from the social interaction and, hey the exercise too! Plus the fact that I’m learning how to ‘block’ attacks and bring my attacker to the floor
! Lol it’s great to kick ass :lol:! (sometimes).
Anyway, I just thought I’d share my ‘positive’ experience with you guys, maybe it’ll encourage some of you to join up for clubs and things. Good luck to everyone and don’t give up. Hey, if I can do it, anyone can! xx
ps. I still have a BIG phobia of telephones tho, and it ain't going away any time soon!! :roll:
