The cycle of control and chaos

[lilmutegirl]

This may be something that has already been discussed, but I've noticed that I go through a cycle of feeling like things are getting better (not just with my anxiety--mainly my finances, but also, school, social life, health, etc). Pretty much as soon as I start to feel like I'm taking control of stuff, something happens to ruin it. I tend to feel like my life is spiraling out of control as soon as I realize that things aren't going the way I want them to. I feel that several aspects of my life are gradually improving (over the years, I've paid off some debt, I'm slowing working toward a degree, etc), but month to month, stuff gets overwhelming.
An interesting thing I've noticed is that most of this stuff is trackable. It's all pretty simple, really. I get a bill, I should pay it. I need to take a class, I should enroll and pass it. I logically realize all of these things, but sometimes I get sidetracked with my anxiety, and don't do what I should do to reach my goals. Also, as far as money is concerned, I don't feel like I have total control over how much money I'm bringing in (I work a part-time job and the hours vary week to week). Fortunately, the new job I'm starting should cover all of my utilities, so all I'll really need to worry about is food/gas for car/tuition/debt with the other income.
Sorry...this was a lot longer than I intended it to be. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[da_illest101]

I do, the anxiety takes so much effort to deal with sometimes that you just can't focus on other things or you forgot about important things. It ruin my life on many occasions and I doubt that it will change anytime soon.

 

[Srijita52]

Yeah, it happens to me all the time. I guess anxiety is really hard to deal with, sometimes it just gets the best of us.

 

[SoScared]

Yes, this happens to me to. But my concern is more on a daily basis. I can go from control to chaos several times each day. Hence my location.

 

[Starry]

My anxiety/negative thoughts/worrying definitely goes in cycles... I can have months on end where I suffer terribly, then it eases off for a while, then back again. Right now I'm feeling quite bad because I had beaten a lot of my anxiety for a few years, with just an occasional rearing of its ugly head, but it came back with a vengeance during the winter and I'm only just starting to recover, though I have a very long way to go yet...

 

[SoScared]

Its odd. I go out in the morning and my SA is low and controllable and my gaze happily under control and almost normal. I stop and rest for an hour or so in a park. When I set off again I've just lost it, I'm all over the place. Don't know why. I managed to relax a bit and get my SA under control, but nowhere near satisfactorily as it was in the morning. This happens quite a lot. Going to try and find some kind of afternoon strategy if you will. Some way of preparing for the second part of the day because they seems to be less under my control than the first part.