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[theslowesthand]

Feeling slightly inspired, again, by some kind of "artificial substance", of which I will not say. This is when the things which are normally kept pushed WAY below the surface of my awareness, come to light, and I can see things more clearly, perhaps.

There is, I think, a HUGE type of "power" which people (direct contact with, that is) bring to the "equation".

My problem, if it is a problem, is that I constantly live in terror of this power - the power both of great good but also of great bad.
So I just take the easier route, that of safety, and avoidance.
But the problem is that, especially whenever in a state of "broader awareness", I sense that my potential as a human being might be a TINY FRACTION of what it was always meant to be. This is the price to pay, when living a life of solitude, I guess.

This is the predicament I face...

 

[DesertFox]

Sounds illegal lol

 

[Moa]

There is, I think, a HUGE type of "power" which people (direct contact with, that is) bring to the "equation".

My problem, if it is a problem, is that I constantly live in terror of this power - the power both of great good but also of great bad.
So I just take the easier route, that of safety, and avoidance.
But the problem is that, especially whenever in a state of "broader awareness", I sense that my potential as a human being might be a TINY FRACTION of what it was always meant to be. This is the price to pay, when living a life of solitude, I guess.

This is the predicament I face...

I think I get what you're saying, but I might be totally wrong here...

If you are the type of person sensitive to the energy (power) of others, you can learn to create an "energy field" to shield yourself from it. Some googling would probably help explain what I mean... I have a friend who does it. I have a hard time sensing energy, so I was a failure at building an energy shield for myself.

 

[theslowesthand]

Indeed, I am a very "sensitive" man, uncommonly so it seems. Not sure about the psychic energy thing though .. just know that after being around people (on most occasions) my mind (& feelings) both go into "overdrive", and I seem incapable of stopping it's unrily "wheel-spinning". So, I simply avoid people for most of my waking hours, mainly for that reason.
Basically, I view people as this: powerful, hard, fast, violent, decadent, evil (all the things which "oppose" me at my deepest levels)

 

[N0D]

Feeling slightly inspired, again, by some kind of "artificial substance", of which I will not say. This is when the things which are normally kept pushed WAY below the surface of my awareness, come to light, and I can see things more clearly, perhaps.

There is, I think, a HUGE type of "power" which people (direct contact with, that is) bring to the "equation".

My problem, if it is a problem, is that I constantly live in terror of this power - the power both of great good but also of great bad.
So I just take the easier route, that of safety, and avoidance.
But the problem is that, especially whenever in a state of "broader awareness", I sense that my potential as a human being might be a TINY FRACTION of what it was always meant to be. This is the price to pay, when living a life of solitude, I guess.

This is the predicament I face...

While listening to enya, i use crystals to focus my chi and align it with my chakras.

yeah i'm making fun tell me you don't regret or at least laugh at yourself for things you say to people while "altered"

 

[theslowesthand]

While listening to enya, i use crystals to focus my chi and align it with my chakras

Good idea (seriosuly!). Sounds like you know your stuff! Is this from experience?
Gettin closer & closer to "crystals and that sh*t" every year. Almost at the point of taking some positive action.

yeah i'm making fun

Dude, no apology needed! Poking-fun is "all good" - just ask anyone on this forum!

tell me you don't regret or at least laugh at yourself for things you say to people while "altered"

Sorry NOD'dy, but i cannot tell you this, as that wouldn't be completely true. I do quite often feel a bit crappy usually after making posts on this forum ("regret" if you like), which is exactly the same with my real-world dealings with people. But i'm probably not in an "altered" a state as you'd like to believe (its only alcohol, not anything illegal, but thats plenty "altered" enough for me). My "sane" thoughts/beliefs aren't much different to now, its just that the "substance" allows my mind to focus on these things, and feel them, and progress with them a bit.