no1
Banned
sometimes I can do it. but usually, or "normally" or.. I shouldn't even say that. A majority of the time I just feel weird outside. Also a majority (relative) of the time I can take walks easily.
But I do have self image problems. Perhaps if I had a history of taking more walks outside I would feel more comfortable.
I guess the more exposure you have walking outside the more easier it will feel as time passes. But that is just a guess. I did notice though that after being outside the whole day because I was at school, it felt easier to walk the street.
I think it also depends on the environment as well. In a suburb there are a lot of times, big, open spaces where if someone is walking around they tend to be more noticeable, especially if there's not THAT many people walking around also. Like for example on a big street, or avenue. Whatever you wanna call those. Like the main streets. But I can kinda feel more comfortable walking around stores or so.
Maybe it just depends on whether I can blend in with the crowd. If I feel like all eyes will be on me, I think I will get a little nervous or self conscious. Maybe anyone would reguardless of who they were, because they may feel as if they were judged.
Today.. I was pacing back and forth though.. people looked at me like I was crazy. I had my hands clenched, as if I was cold. My back is pretty crooked also, and I'm sorta overweight. i'm also "usually" tired and hold a pain in my chest. Who wouldn't feel nervous with these conditions, if they felt they were being judged all the time by the way it looks?
my reactions may just be normal. If I may act like everything is as it should be then i feel more comfortable just walking out in the street.
sometimes putting my hands in my pockets, and just act like Im just laid back, make my walk slower like a stroll, look down maybe, makes me feel more comfortable. it also makes my back feel straighter when I put my hands in my pocket. when I have them outside my pockets I feel crooked.
sorry for the rambling, and apparent pointless topic.
But I do have self image problems. Perhaps if I had a history of taking more walks outside I would feel more comfortable.
I guess the more exposure you have walking outside the more easier it will feel as time passes. But that is just a guess. I did notice though that after being outside the whole day because I was at school, it felt easier to walk the street.
I think it also depends on the environment as well. In a suburb there are a lot of times, big, open spaces where if someone is walking around they tend to be more noticeable, especially if there's not THAT many people walking around also. Like for example on a big street, or avenue. Whatever you wanna call those. Like the main streets. But I can kinda feel more comfortable walking around stores or so.
Maybe it just depends on whether I can blend in with the crowd. If I feel like all eyes will be on me, I think I will get a little nervous or self conscious. Maybe anyone would reguardless of who they were, because they may feel as if they were judged.
Today.. I was pacing back and forth though.. people looked at me like I was crazy. I had my hands clenched, as if I was cold. My back is pretty crooked also, and I'm sorta overweight. i'm also "usually" tired and hold a pain in my chest. Who wouldn't feel nervous with these conditions, if they felt they were being judged all the time by the way it looks?
my reactions may just be normal. If I may act like everything is as it should be then i feel more comfortable just walking out in the street.
sometimes putting my hands in my pockets, and just act like Im just laid back, make my walk slower like a stroll, look down maybe, makes me feel more comfortable. it also makes my back feel straighter when I put my hands in my pocket. when I have them outside my pockets I feel crooked.
sorry for the rambling, and apparent pointless topic.