Necrucifer
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...What do I do if I keep having constant suicidal thoughts...my mom wont take me to the doctor and I been mentioning it for a good while...They just keep getting more realistic the more time goes...It started out little after I dropped out of school 5 years ago when everything went to hell.
I did not want to really talk about it but I cant stop thinking of it or ways to do something and I been holding back but they keep getting stronger and the more I **** up my life I just add more weight to it...I dont have money I have insurance...but I am scared of hospitals and it seems like a lose lose situation...
I was starting to get happier but more things went downhill past few hours...so I dont know what to do and no matter what I think I am just wanting to go...I dont know what else to say but any help please...
I want to just stop these stupid thoughts before I feel like I will do it anymore...I have tried before and failed but that was a few years ago...I guess you could say its good I am still here otherwise I'd be dead by now if it wasnt for that...It just the thoughts are getting stronger again and I dont wanna attempt anything again I just want it to go away...
I did not want to really talk about it but I cant stop thinking of it or ways to do something and I been holding back but they keep getting stronger and the more I **** up my life I just add more weight to it...I dont have money I have insurance...but I am scared of hospitals and it seems like a lose lose situation...
I was starting to get happier but more things went downhill past few hours...so I dont know what to do and no matter what I think I am just wanting to go...I dont know what else to say but any help please...
I want to just stop these stupid thoughts before I feel like I will do it anymore...I have tried before and failed but that was a few years ago...I guess you could say its good I am still here otherwise I'd be dead by now if it wasnt for that...It just the thoughts are getting stronger again and I dont wanna attempt anything again I just want it to go away...