Confuseddd
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Yeah, so i will do my best but i have been thinking about this for awhile on and off now and still i am completely unsure of what happened. Alright so i just read up on CBT (cognitive behavior therapy) and thinking back in my past i can remember key moments and things that my best friend has done and said that were directly related to what caused my anxiety. For instance there has been more then one time when i felt like he set up social gatherings simply so i could attempt to socialize normally and face the fears. i have felt this way because of some things he would say, like one time me and him had a fire and a few of our friends "randomly" drove over and i said "oh cool nice of you guys to show up" and right after my best friend would say something like "See guys he said its cool" and just like statements like that would happen all the time but they never told me anything about it. In fact i had never mentioned my anxiety to anyone while this was happening, although i am very close to my bestfriend and im sure it was obvious to him that i was expierencing social anxiety. My main concern is that i am not sure if this was just me being paranoid because it WAS a social situation and i was just feeling anxious and they really did show up randomly. But it has happened more then once and the weird thing is it actually was helping to make me better. I know i should probably just ask him but i would feel weird and stupid if it was in fact just paranoia or something. another thing i should probably say is that i did not like to talk about my SA at all, so we kind of avoided the topic of my anxiety all together for the longest time. At the particular event i mentioned earlier though he would start singing a song that we would be listening to and would expect me to sing it to with him. (That is extremely hard for me if there is people around even if it is just my best friend) Idk maybe one of you can sort my thoughts out better. I ended up having a panic attack that night because of the attempting to sing in front of people. Pretty much i cant tell if they were doing behavior therapy with me or if i am just paranoid. Also that night i was talking to one of the girls that was there, we ended up talking for like 10 minutes and at the end of it she said to my best friend something along the lines of "Wow everything was completely fine" and my friend ended up giving her a big hug right in front of me cuz he was happy. The thing is they never tried to hide any of the things that they said. its just they never let me know it if they were doing behavior therapy? I probably sound crazy but idk, any thoughts please?
