So...There's this guy...

[Iseesky]

Every morning I take the bus and skytrain to school. I wait at the bus station in my town, take the bus to the skytrain station 30 minutes away and take the skytrain for 10 minutes to my college (I'm an 18 year old first year).

One friday morning I was waiting at the skytrain station for the train to come. I hear a voice saying something to me. I turn around and see my grade 8/9 crush. Before I even had to time to we started talking. The skytrain came, and we talked for 10 minutes until I had to get off. We said our goodbyes and that was that. I walked the rest of the way to school in a daze. Of course, I texted all of my friends and they were all excited blahblahblah...

The next morning, I arrived at the bus station later than normal. I saw my crush standing there. After talking to him yesterday, I felt obligated to say hello. So, I walked up beside him and said 'hey, how's it goin'?' The bus came, we got on the bus...talked talked talked...got off the bus...talked talked talked...got on the skytrain...talked talked talked...the train arrived at my stop and he said 'what's your number...we should hangout sometime.' I gave it to him, we said our goodbyes and I went to school.

This time though, I wasn't in a daze. I was I've never hung out with a guy before. Like...one on one. I've never had a boyfriend...clearly. The fact that I found him cute in grade 8 and 9 and he finds me cute now is funny. But, he graduated in grade 9. Which makes him 4 years older than me. Which gives him more worldly experience, (he went to Australia by himself a couple years ago.) which makes me nervous. I feel so immature talking to him. He's got a job, he's been travelling, he's independant and I'm totally not!

I guess that doesn't bother me too much though. What DOES bother me, though, is the fact that his younger brother makes me incredibly uncomfortable. As in, I haven't blushed or been nervous around anyone since I graduated high school. However, if he came up and started talking to me...I would be as red as a tomato. He's just one of those guys who try to be funny and make you uncomfortable. Not to mention that in grade 8 he called me a mute. :: So...yeah! If the guy does invite me to his house, I'm going to think of every excuse not to go so I don't have to see his brother!

I feel sick to my stomach (literally) just thinking about it. I may or may not have faked sick today so I wouldn't have to talk to the guy on the bus this morning. =/

It sucks. He has my cell number now, so there's basically no avoiding him. Next semester I plan on taking less classes, and take them later in the afternoon, so I probably won't see him on the bus, skytrain...etc. I would thus be avoiding his brother who probably stemmed my SA in grade 8...And, the embarassment that comes from that! Tomorrow though, if he's at the bus, I'll be talking to him again. Ugh...It would have been lovely had his brother not existed! He's got a nice little sister who I'm fine with.

:: Poo.

 

[Iseesky]

He just asked if I wanted to do anything tonight. Told him I stayed home from school today sick, and that I can't. Ugh, I hate this.

 

[chained]

the guy is totally in u!!!!! and u obviously kicked it on.. in the skytran.. so I don't see why going out with him would be a problem if ur not going to his house...please call him next time...

 

[Krista]

Oh don't do that to yourself : ( Maybe the first couple times you guys hangout it can be at your place or going out somewhere. After awhile, when and if you feel comfortable, tell him that you've had an issue with his brother before but don't let that kid stop you from enjoying your possible first boyfriend.

 

[reslo]

obviously he doesn't care what his brother thinks, or he wouldn't have talked to you in the first place.
We can't choose our family members- i have a few doozys in mine- and i would hate if people judged me by their opinions. He may or may not agree with or like his brother.
If you talked to him, you could find this out~
Sometimes people have all these really great sounding experiences, but sometimes they sound better than what they are, or it doesn't mean that the person can't be down to earth. Sometimes they just knew the right people or came from a background where they can afford these things- and you're a university student, you've already got something going on in your life!
I get really intimidated by other people's accomplishments too- but i try to keep in mind that it's common for people to exaggerate their accomplishments in order to make themselves look good and there is the possibility people may be envious of an event in my life (even though to me, it doesn't seem so special) and that their experiences could be something i could learn from

i know it's easier said than done, but don't let other people run your life! they usually have problems of their own, and deal with them by letting it out on people who don't deserve it.

what could be better revenge against the younger bro than to be buddy buddy with the older one?

 

[Why]

good for you, who cares about his bro

 

[agoraphobickatie]

aww.. when's the last time you were around his brother? who knows, maybe he's grown up a little or just different, or won't even remember being a jerk to you that long ago? i know it's the most difficult thing to do, but maybe try to think positive about some things... and him being older and more 'world experienced' or whatever, well.. that's what us girls like anyway! a more mature man, right? he probably wouldn't be so judgmental or misunderstanding of you maybe seeming nervous to hang out... i guess usually when i get a feel for someone, and think that they seem to be sensitive enough to others, i'll just come out and say "yeahhh... well i'm crazy and anxious all the time! sooo that's probably why i seem freaked!" or something.. just make a casual joke of it, ya know? i remember telling a guy being with him made me nervous/anxious as hell and he thought it was kinda cute, haha.. he just so happened to be one of the guys that after i was with him and anxious for a while, i'd completely relax and forget about it and just have a good time with him.... ya never know what could happen! but by at least giving it a shot, you're stepping into something and trying, the more you do it, the more you learn to cope with your feelings, ya know? ..anywho, that was just a jumble of words, wasn't it?! haha best wishes to you!!

 

[Nack]

O wow the way you described him, it makes me feel as if i'm a total loser. I don't have a job, don't have worldly experience, and is afraid of living independently... hmm

 

[Iseesky]

Awww =] Thank you all so much! You've all made me feel so much better. I'm still nervous, but not nearly as much as I was when I posted this!

I think once I get to know him better I'll say the same thing, agoraphobickatie...That he makes me nervous and anxious. I bet it just takes a huge weight off of your shoulders with him knowing you really like him and that's the reason you're acting a little strange! =]

 

[Iseesky]

O wow the way you described him, it makes me feel as if i'm a total loser. I don't have a job, don't have worldly experience, and is afraid of living independently... hmm

Haha...I don't have a job, worldy experience and I'm also afraid to be independant. :: I guess I'll just live vicariously through him for awhile. But, it does freak me out that he seems to have 'lived' a lot longer than I have!