I got stuck coming up with a title, so I took the safe route of a reference to xkcd.
I figure I've been lurking (with the occasional post) long enough. Truth be told, I have trouble with interactions on the Internet as well (I'm unsure whether this stems from the potential of being denounced as wrong or that any replies will fail to continue the conversation or wholly ignore me.)
Real-life wise, I'm 23, unemployed, and the semester-to-a-year taken off from college bloated into a significantly longer period of time. I am a complete recluse - by choice. I had been ascribing this to passive misanthropy and/or plain ol' being asocial, but a couple of weeks ago I arrived here due to a Google-trail starting from 'shyness'.
I'm loathe to self-diagnose (and not keen at all on actually getting diagnosed, for several reasons), but I'm certainly symptomatic of social anxiety and/or phobia. I never liked to go out in public, but I always associated that with merely being burdensome or slightly unpleasurable; now I become paralyzed at the thought of it. I'm uncertain if this is something new or a case of having been functional and then atrophied due to disuse.
For the sake of brevity I've tried to avoid speculation on what the underlying reasons for my problems are. It's been quite circular in my head, and in attempting to share it I tend to come up with another plausible interpretation. I figure at this point actions - gaining experience - counts for more than introspection.
I figure I've been lurking (with the occasional post) long enough. Truth be told, I have trouble with interactions on the Internet as well (I'm unsure whether this stems from the potential of being denounced as wrong or that any replies will fail to continue the conversation or wholly ignore me.)
Real-life wise, I'm 23, unemployed, and the semester-to-a-year taken off from college bloated into a significantly longer period of time. I am a complete recluse - by choice. I had been ascribing this to passive misanthropy and/or plain ol' being asocial, but a couple of weeks ago I arrived here due to a Google-trail starting from 'shyness'.
I'm loathe to self-diagnose (and not keen at all on actually getting diagnosed, for several reasons), but I'm certainly symptomatic of social anxiety and/or phobia. I never liked to go out in public, but I always associated that with merely being burdensome or slightly unpleasurable; now I become paralyzed at the thought of it. I'm uncertain if this is something new or a case of having been functional and then atrophied due to disuse.
For the sake of brevity I've tried to avoid speculation on what the underlying reasons for my problems are. It's been quite circular in my head, and in attempting to share it I tend to come up with another plausible interpretation. I figure at this point actions - gaining experience - counts for more than introspection.
coz you got free time to do exploring