evil feline space cadet
Banned
WTF is wrong with me.
Anytime i see people being loved up or flirting I feel like saying "f*ck off and die!"
Its not just 'cause its February - or that i like anyone.
I'm just plain jealous. Its so pathetic and irrational.
Half these people are lovely - even my best friends!
Maybe its 'cause i know i get nothing but negative attention (insults) from guys. I usually avoid going clubbing (which i usually loved 'cause at least i might meet new friends there), because of how i look. I dont want to go out knowing the only way a guy would approach me is:
a) he's extremely pissed/desparate.
b) he's after my friend.
c) he wants to take me home (which I'm totally not cool with) only to wake up in terror and make me a subject of jokes between him and his friends afterwards.
d) he's VERY MUCH not my type.
e) aaand the most common one.... He wants to insult the **** outta me!
I've NEVER received positive attention from guys - well except when i was a fraction of the weight i am now.... and when they wanted one thing.... and when they wanted to be a rebound!
I've heard from my mate that her bro (who is likely to have SA - as he never walks, only drives in town - and never goes into shops) likes me, which seems too good to be true. He has my number (through her texting/calling him) though, and shes told him i like him, so why hasnt he text me? I'd make the first move but I'm terrified he won't text back and ill be waiting anxiously for weeks... or will just do what everyone else would and think "WHY ME?!"
I shouldn't be jealous of other couples/potential couples though... I should be happy for them. But i can't help myself. I wanted to hit a guy and girl who were flirting on the bus yesterday.
I've completely lost it...
Anytime i see people being loved up or flirting I feel like saying "f*ck off and die!"
Its not just 'cause its February - or that i like anyone.
I'm just plain jealous. Its so pathetic and irrational.
Half these people are lovely - even my best friends!
Maybe its 'cause i know i get nothing but negative attention (insults) from guys. I usually avoid going clubbing (which i usually loved 'cause at least i might meet new friends there), because of how i look. I dont want to go out knowing the only way a guy would approach me is:
a) he's extremely pissed/desparate.
b) he's after my friend.
c) he wants to take me home (which I'm totally not cool with) only to wake up in terror and make me a subject of jokes between him and his friends afterwards.
d) he's VERY MUCH not my type.
e) aaand the most common one.... He wants to insult the **** outta me!
I've NEVER received positive attention from guys - well except when i was a fraction of the weight i am now.... and when they wanted one thing.... and when they wanted to be a rebound!
I've heard from my mate that her bro (who is likely to have SA - as he never walks, only drives in town - and never goes into shops) likes me, which seems too good to be true. He has my number (through her texting/calling him) though, and shes told him i like him, so why hasnt he text me? I'd make the first move but I'm terrified he won't text back and ill be waiting anxiously for weeks... or will just do what everyone else would and think "WHY ME?!"
I shouldn't be jealous of other couples/potential couples though... I should be happy for them. But i can't help myself. I wanted to hit a guy and girl who were flirting on the bus yesterday.
I've completely lost it...
