FaymeLevy
Well-known member
Im sorry, but I really needed a place to talk this morning. I, literally, dont know how much more I can take. In 2 months, I turn 24, and a couple months after that, is the 11th anniversary of my doing absolutely nothing with my life due to SA.
By nothing, I mean...nothing. Not working, no education, no friends, no romantic relationships. Just wake up, go to my computer, play games all day, and go to bed. Its gotten to the point now that I cry several times a day at everything. I cant watch tv anymore because the commercials make me cry!
I don't know what to do with myself. I hate living like this, missing out on everything, but cant do anything about it. My mother (god love her) is more than willing to pay my rent, buy my food, and buy other material items (that i've become somewhat obsessed with doing; owning stuff), but is completely unwilling to pay for any therapy or even talk at length about any of it seriously. I try to start a discussion with her about it, then get embarassed because all she can say is "I cant help you, only you can help you." You would think after 11 years, she'd realize that I cant.
*sigh* Im going to go distract myself by playing more games...thanks for letting me get it out.
By nothing, I mean...nothing. Not working, no education, no friends, no romantic relationships. Just wake up, go to my computer, play games all day, and go to bed. Its gotten to the point now that I cry several times a day at everything. I cant watch tv anymore because the commercials make me cry!
I don't know what to do with myself. I hate living like this, missing out on everything, but cant do anything about it. My mother (god love her) is more than willing to pay my rent, buy my food, and buy other material items (that i've become somewhat obsessed with doing; owning stuff), but is completely unwilling to pay for any therapy or even talk at length about any of it seriously. I try to start a discussion with her about it, then get embarassed because all she can say is "I cant help you, only you can help you." You would think after 11 years, she'd realize that I cant.
*sigh* Im going to go distract myself by playing more games...thanks for letting me get it out.