Sick of being sick

Lorraine Manca

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I'm sick of being so deathly nervous around people. I've lived this way for all my life and I feel like ive reached my threshold for tolerating it anymore. lf the doctors dont figure out how to fix it real soon, Im going to have to find another way out before I go from quiet crazy to loud crazy. So tired of hiding it and trying to act normal. Wish i could just tell people not to get near me or talk to me. If people could keep a distance of five feet at all times and only communicate with me through writing and not speaking, id be thrilled.
This has to end soon. Im sure a lot of you feel similar.
 

FOR REAL

Banned
i wish i could be "quiet crazy" these days, but im passed that stage and im now "loud crazy" so be LOUD CRAZY i reckon.
when and if i ever die i will be known as "crazy" but not "quiet"!

LOUD CRAZY :D
 

PennyLane

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My ex was really outgoing and i used to ask him how he could just speak to people and be so loud. Everyone knows him and he always speaks out in every social situations..anyway he said he just didn't care...he'll say what he wants. He was like if people don't like me why should it bother me.

And its true...lots of people don't like him at all...he has actual enemies..it completely doesn't bother him at all. Yet there are just as many that absolutely love him.

I would love this kind of freedom.
 

Lorraine Manca

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Thats the problem right there. We hold in our feelings and thoughts, making us worse. I'll tell you right now, doctors arent gonna cure you, IMO they are a waste of time. Seek therapy, try exercising and swimming to calm yourself more and reduce anxiety.

If you havent figured it out now, you gotta take your life into your own hands, dont depend on anyone else.

Ive tried several therapists and I am a runner. Thanks for the advice though. I guess I "havent figured it out" by now. How do you take your life into your own hands? By the way, I am around people all day, consider me exposed.
 

Lorraine Manca

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When you go to a psychaitrist, they will only try and dope you up. They never try to find your problem and work on it, they only wanna hide the problem with their meds. And going this route is bullcrap cause SA and depression arent really a biological problem. There may be some problems like these but this can be achieved through proper sleep and diet, exercise etc.


Now, if you go to a psychologist/therapist/couselor, they will try to discover your problems and work through them (if they are a good), but YOU still have to put it into practice.

No matter what you learn its useless unless you use it. In my experience psychaitrists are a waste of time. Ive never been to a therapist, but again, its really up to you to do all the work for yourself. In my experience most doctors arent that compassionate, theyre lazy, and really a waste of time and money.


Its ultimately up to you to take charge of your life. If you put your life in their hands they are just gonna do wha they want and fool you around and waste your time. You can get the same info out of self help books as going to a therapist, no matyter where you get your ideas, like I say, its useless unless you use it. So the sooner you realize this the better.



Tking your life into your hands would be learning as much about your disorders, and using all ideas available. Theres no quick cures, no fast results. What do you learn at your therapy? Do you use any of it? Get a good self help book. If you really use this info you will get better.


In therapy, there is mostly talk about the cause and reversing the cause, child abuse. As far as the advice of getting out there and chatting with people, I do get out there, and i do chat with people, regardless of my aversion to it. I do breathing exercises, running, all of it. The only thing that has improved is that i can hide it better. I am still excruciatingly uncomfortable no matter how well I hide it. So what do I have to put into practice. Please tell me.
 

Lorraine Manca

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You just need to develop a better way of expressing your emotions and thoughts. You gotta keep exposing yourself to your fears gradually. Like I say, theres no fast results.

How? Like i said, consider me exposed. I teach a second grade class once a week, go to graduate school, do volunteer fundraising for a church, make small talk with people at the train station, so on and so forth.
 

Lorraine Manca

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What exactly is your problem? Like whats bothering you so much?

It sounds like you are putting the effort in. I dont really have all the answers, I dont think anyone does. But I do know that there will be setbacks, discomfort, fear etc, its all part of the process of life. And it may be something you may deal wtih your whole life. Are people willing to accept that? Most people dont/wont, they hide from it and push it away, or wont make any effort cause they want fast results. Thus they continue to live miserable.

I shake and twitch when people get near me and have a hard time breathing. Probably most people dont notice, but it bothers me a lot. It has more to do with proximity than social interaction, although social interaction isnt fun either. Thats what im tired living with.
 

Sinar_Matahari

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I'm sick of letting my fears and anxieties keep me from being myself to the fullest. I know there is something good in there. This is what I'm trying to work on.
 
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