Should one strain to get better or strive for ease

[CZi]

Thanks to some lazy not-so-perfect perfectionism, guess it's my instinct to better myself, or at least strive for some sense of "the perfect me." It's annoying and depressing to not be accepting of oneself, let alone being content. But the one good thing is part of that drive is to find said contentment; one day I might actually find it.