My name is Cybil, ironic huh? I'm the one that wishes I had another personality.
I'm 40 years old , divorced mother of 2. I dont know when my anxieties started, I'm pretty sure they've always been there. Alot of extremely horrible life events have happened within the last 4 years, unbelieve things. I'm now unable to leave my yard.. I can make it to the grocery store, however, while there, its not pretty. I have to medicate to go and still have panic attacks, embarrasing my myself. I'm worried that will stop too. I have missed too many dr appts, panic grips me so hard I physically become ill. I disappoint my childre, my family has cut me off and wont speak to me, I disappoint myaelf. I'm stuck in a very unhealthy relationship, because I cannot work to support myself. It took a year to get food stamps. I've Los about 100 pounds, cant sleep..then all I do is sleep. I told my dr about the attacks, and he is worried about addiction to xanax.. I was just told by my g I dorandmother that my mom had agoraphobia..which is new to me. I knew I had something wrong, thinking it was fear of loss or failure..but reading about agnoraphobia, Im pretty sure thats what I'm cursed with. It makes sense, however, the fear is so bad I'm not sure how to see a doctor, or even survive anymore. I feel helpless.