Seeing event's before they happen...or am I delusional?

[Scared Dreamer]

I just need to vent. I don't even care how crazy this sounds but I figured this is a relatively safe place to talk about my thoughts. I have no idea why I feel like I saw a chain of events occurring before they actually happen. I can't even tell now if they are imagined or if they are real. I embarrassed myself horribly in public around 3 weeks ago. I really can't get over it. I'm still filled with shame but now I'm also freaked out by how bizarre this is getting.

I acted beyond awkward in front of 3 guys while I was over this guy's house I used to go to school with. I kept blurting out embarrassing things and acting inappropriate. One of the things I'm remembering (or I think I remember) is that I had talked about trying to save my relationship with my ex-boyfriend by buying him nice underwear for me to wear. I had described each kind. In addition I talked about my shame of overspending and letting others walk all over me. I talked about my sister being mad at me and refusing to talk to me. The guy I went to school with said "what if your sister bought a yellow striped bra and it didn't fit her, so she decided to give it to you for Christmas?" He said yellow and striped because I had said I didn't like yellow and wasn't really into stripes. He also asked if I would wear it even if it was a little too big because my sister had bought it for herself but it ended up not fitting and she decided to forgive me and also give me a present. I said I maybe would but I didn't see that happening because my sister and I were in a fight and we refused to talk to each other. I also couldn't see my sister giving me a bra for christmas.

Well since I embarrassed myself beyond normal shame I suppressed majority of the conversation and entered into an ocd episod. My sister became worried about me and she forgave me. I didn't talk to her about any of this. She just knew I was going through a rough time. Weirdly she ended up giving me the exact bra the guy mentioned down to the very last detail he mentioned. He even said well you don't really like bows any more. What if it had a bow in the center of it? The bra also had a bow. This is only one example of a whole line of things that were said and then occurred without any reason.

I can't tell if I am refusing to acknowledge that something bizarre happen and automatically disbelieving what was said or if I am applying stories to random events. I hate to say this but I'm not sure what is real or imagined. I want to ask the guy but I can't since it's bizarre and I already embarrassed myself.

 

[Phoenixx]

I've had similar things happen to me before too. Usually for me, I dream of situations before they even occur, even if it's just little snippets of things. I've dreamed of situations months before they ever occurred too. I've had deja vu type things happen to me so many times I've lost count. It's just plain weird.

 

[Niteowl]

It's quite weird but... not delusional, I shouldn't think. My mum is always saying stuff like that. Personally, I'm always doing things like remembering a song I haven't heard in years, and then in the next few days hearing it played on the radio or on the TV. I was thinking about the Joker a few minutes ago (when he was the ambassador for the Iranian embassy, no less) and then my dad, for no real reason at all, said "Batman! Batman!" how Joker said it when screaming for Batman's help in the cartoons. I have no idea why these things happen, but they do seem to happen a lot, to myself and to other people I talk to.

If you remember it so clearly, the conversation, then it probably did happen. It was very specific in your case, with the yellow stripes and the bow, which I can imagine must feel very unsettling indeed. All I can really suggest is to read around the web a bit for people telling similar stories. I think that doing that could help you a bit, because you should be able to see that you're not crazy, even if the situation is rather bizarre. :]

Sorry to hear about your embarrassment.

Happy new year. <)

 

[Scared Dreamer]

If it wasn't a random event, I'm wondering what it meant. Yellow to me symbolizes caution, slow down, or sunshine if I was to analyse this event the way I would with a dream. I would be interested in anyone's opinion what they thought this could of meant. I appreciate that you guys believe me.

The whole event surrounding this was just weird in general because I had acted so out of character. I had gone over this guys house to talk to him about a possible gallery show. Two other guys had been over there too. I pretty much acted awkward in conversation and then proceeded to become more and more awkward to a point where I probably seemed like I was on drugs, having a flashback, or mentally disabled. I chalked it up to an extreme social anxiety freak out but I've never been that bad before. What was weird too was I felt like I couldn't handle myself in following conversation because I felt like I could hear everyone's negative and also sexual thoughts about me. I even blurted out things in a similar way to turrets (that has never happen to me before). I had no idea I was even talking and I would just hear my paranoid freak outs. The guys I was talking to sort of believed me because what I said at some points were actually their thoughts. I almost felt controlled by their thoughts and acted how they wanted me to. I know this probably sounds like they drugged me but they absolutely didn't. I felt weird before I even went over to his place. I felt triggered by these fluorescent lights.

The other weird thing is I acted so awkward I wasn't looking at anyone so I wasn't reading body language. I kept accidentally going into meditation mode and closing my eyes. I could just sense things about them. It was almost as if I gave up being "normal" for a moment so I could sense their thoughts. What in the world happen?

 

[Scared Dreamer]

I want to clarify that I could actually hear what they were asking me and I knew what I was saying but I said things without carefully thinking about what they could mean to other people before blurting them out. I kept realizing what I said that was damaging only to then say something even more embarrassing. I would slip between having no shame about what I was saying to complete embarrassment while sensing what they thought. I at times had no ability to choose what I said or did. I've never ever felt like this before. I can sometimes sense peoples thoughts but not to this extreme.

 

[Clown]

since 7 years old I knew I would later end up as a looser and guess what it happened ?! lol

 

[Scared Dreamer]

Clown, you shouldn't think that. Everyone has the power to make their life great. I'm trying on working at that. Don't let other people bring you down.

 

[ilovenoodles]

I experience things like that too, just like some family members of mine. Bizzar!

 

[Azael]

The most probable explanation for this is that a delayed neurological response is responsible for thus. I too have had very intriguing episodes of what many could call premonition. I even ventured into and investigated my family tree that was very revealing in occult axtivity in particular bloodlines, but that is not information I'll share here. To the point, because information enters the processing centers of the brain via more than one path, it is possible that occasionally that blending of information might not synchronize correctly.

Robert Efron found that the temporal lobe of the brain's left hemisphere is responsible for sorting incoming information. He also found that the temporal lobe receives this incoming information twice with a slight (milliseconds-long) delay between transmissions -- once directly and once again after its detour through the right hemisphere of the brain. If that second transmission is delayed slightly longer, then the brain might put the wrong timestamp on that bit of information and register it as a previous memory because it had already been processed. That could explain the sudden sense of familiarity.