Horatio
Well-known member
Hear me out on this... for the last few months I've been working on trying to find a solution to all this crap we have to go through and I did come to a conclusion. as usual Im gonna cut to the crap and not try to tippytoe around anyone's sensitivies... so if dont read further if you think you might not like what I have to say
I have completely lost hope that I will ever improve. I've been struggling to deal with this problem ever since those fuckers at school terrified me and its not getting any easier as I get older. The more I try to be accepted the more I'm rejected. I'm 23 and will no doubt never know what it is like to hold a woman in my arms. This is a situation that I know a lot of males on this forum will understand as being all too familiar.
It dawned on me that there are advantages to this condition. If I'm to live life always on the edge, always paranoid, always alone, always feeling like an outsider then I'm actually in what could almost be an enviable situation. I dont have a girlfriend, my family barely bother to even keep in touch with me, I spend evenings alone and people on the streets seem to enjoy mocking me. In all respects it is as if western society has rejected me.
With that in mind I've decided to return the favour and am now working on completely turning my back on society. Fuck the norms, I dont care what I am or aren't allowed to wear. I will wear what I want... I will say what I want and I will think what I want.
I'm alone and anxious anyways so what difference will it make!
most people are so caught up in their peer group, their families wishes, societies guidelines etc etc. that seems to dictate our own feelings all too often... we are losers because society says so... because the magazines and internet articles say so... because the advertisments say so... we are told what we must have to be happy and we fucking believe it! If it werent for all that then social anxiety wouldnt exist in my opinion.
in the last few weeks Ive turned my thinking around... now when I get a dissaproving look from some Paris Hilton wannabe I return the favour... she dissaproves of me because I dont fit into her world, Im not her idea of a worthwhile human being... well guess what... I feel the same about her. I look around me on the streets and I see an enslaved people, believing what they are told, influenced by the media and their peers. They are slaves and they dont even know it. But I see people on this forum and it makes me think that maybe we have what they dont... maybe we can find it easier to be true to ourselves? if we are the loners and rejects that we claim to be then what is there to lose? really? if we struggle so much to fit in with others then whats to stop us walking away from it all?
My advice to you all is to learn to say Fuck Off And I dont mean in a meek mumble... if you need lessons in how to say "fuck off" then look no further than Billy Connelly. He really has mastered this!
next time someone gives you a dissaproving look, just look at them and say fuck off. not out loud... but bellow it out inside you..
and guys... if it seems like girls wont ever give you a chance... then fuck them
they deserve the wife beating assholes that they want to be with so much. and if there is a girl out there who will see you for the person you really are then one day you will find them.
We don't need others to be valid! We don't need society's approval!
we who feel like we are on the edge of society can be the first to escape it!!!!!!
I mean it! dress however you want to.... say whatever you want to... live wherever you want to...
In light of my impossible crusade to try to fit into this society I have now completely turned my back on it. I dont want some boring suburban little life anyways. I think the majority of society are no-hoper losers, ignorant of what is around them, ignorant of why they think the way they do and ignorant of how they affect others.
something inside me snapped several weeks ago... I realised that I can choose to cut a different path through this kind of life and turn my back on all that I thought I needed. as soon as I realised this I had the most amazing sense of empowerment.
the last two weeks have been the most amazing roller coaster ride Ive ever been on... oppurtunities that Ive never thought possible have emerged from the woodworks and all of a sudden life seems so much more exciting.
this aint the answer to everything and it doesnt cure socialphobia but I really believe that if you walk away from everything youve ever known and turn your back on society then it really does make an amazing difference. live like your already dead! dont fear anything! what is there to lose!!!?!??!?!!??!
Don't let others dictate your life! Fuck them!
I have completely lost hope that I will ever improve. I've been struggling to deal with this problem ever since those fuckers at school terrified me and its not getting any easier as I get older. The more I try to be accepted the more I'm rejected. I'm 23 and will no doubt never know what it is like to hold a woman in my arms. This is a situation that I know a lot of males on this forum will understand as being all too familiar.
It dawned on me that there are advantages to this condition. If I'm to live life always on the edge, always paranoid, always alone, always feeling like an outsider then I'm actually in what could almost be an enviable situation. I dont have a girlfriend, my family barely bother to even keep in touch with me, I spend evenings alone and people on the streets seem to enjoy mocking me. In all respects it is as if western society has rejected me.
With that in mind I've decided to return the favour and am now working on completely turning my back on society. Fuck the norms, I dont care what I am or aren't allowed to wear. I will wear what I want... I will say what I want and I will think what I want.
I'm alone and anxious anyways so what difference will it make!
most people are so caught up in their peer group, their families wishes, societies guidelines etc etc. that seems to dictate our own feelings all too often... we are losers because society says so... because the magazines and internet articles say so... because the advertisments say so... we are told what we must have to be happy and we fucking believe it! If it werent for all that then social anxiety wouldnt exist in my opinion.
in the last few weeks Ive turned my thinking around... now when I get a dissaproving look from some Paris Hilton wannabe I return the favour... she dissaproves of me because I dont fit into her world, Im not her idea of a worthwhile human being... well guess what... I feel the same about her. I look around me on the streets and I see an enslaved people, believing what they are told, influenced by the media and their peers. They are slaves and they dont even know it. But I see people on this forum and it makes me think that maybe we have what they dont... maybe we can find it easier to be true to ourselves? if we are the loners and rejects that we claim to be then what is there to lose? really? if we struggle so much to fit in with others then whats to stop us walking away from it all?
My advice to you all is to learn to say Fuck Off And I dont mean in a meek mumble... if you need lessons in how to say "fuck off" then look no further than Billy Connelly. He really has mastered this!
next time someone gives you a dissaproving look, just look at them and say fuck off. not out loud... but bellow it out inside you..
and guys... if it seems like girls wont ever give you a chance... then fuck them
they deserve the wife beating assholes that they want to be with so much. and if there is a girl out there who will see you for the person you really are then one day you will find them.We don't need others to be valid! We don't need society's approval!
we who feel like we are on the edge of society can be the first to escape it!!!!!!
I mean it! dress however you want to.... say whatever you want to... live wherever you want to...
In light of my impossible crusade to try to fit into this society I have now completely turned my back on it. I dont want some boring suburban little life anyways. I think the majority of society are no-hoper losers, ignorant of what is around them, ignorant of why they think the way they do and ignorant of how they affect others.
something inside me snapped several weeks ago... I realised that I can choose to cut a different path through this kind of life and turn my back on all that I thought I needed. as soon as I realised this I had the most amazing sense of empowerment.
the last two weeks have been the most amazing roller coaster ride Ive ever been on... oppurtunities that Ive never thought possible have emerged from the woodworks and all of a sudden life seems so much more exciting.
this aint the answer to everything and it doesnt cure socialphobia but I really believe that if you walk away from everything youve ever known and turn your back on society then it really does make an amazing difference. live like your already dead! dont fear anything! what is there to lose!!!?!??!?!!??!
Don't let others dictate your life! Fuck them!
