You know guys, I'm thinking if I should show this video to my boyfriend. Maybe he'll understand me better. I'm glad he's been patient to me all these times. I can truly relate to this part
Afraid of People: A Social Anxiety Disorder Documentary 3/6 - YouTube
Everything that the boyfriend and husband said to their SA partner in this video is the exact things he tells me most of the time. It is the usual cause of our argument.
This is my greatest secret. I know he'll still accept me. But, he has this tendency to see things as overreaction. There's a great possibility that he'll say I'm not as extreme as this. That he might think I'm just putting up an excuse for my "low self - esteem".
In the video, the woman described her little relief upon knowing that there's a "name" for her condition. I remember the first time I've come to this site and realized that I'm not really alone. At that time, I was feeling so depressed and helpless for my being different, so I searched for some answers in the internet and how I was surprised to see an article that describes me.
I admire these people who've exposed themselves to inform others about SA. I wouldn't have the guts to do that because there are a lot of people that would take advantage of my weakness... and it would just break me again.
But finding this site made me recognize my condition and helped me overcome gradually. I still have SA, but looking back at that time I didn't know about this condition, I just felt lost, out of place, unloved everything! Since I've recognized my weakness. I gradually accepted myself although not totally. And it helped me develop what I should improve.
I just wish that all those SA sufferers who haven't recognized it yet... watch this vid or accidentally come to this site.