i had the same thoughts with my ex girlfriend... we didnt break it off because of the thoughts though, we just went to other colleges and we decided it would be easier for both of us to have seperate lives. however, everytime i meet a new girl and we get close, i have extreme anxiety attacks. this weekend i was with this girl, it was our second weekend hanging out, and we just connected, and the chemistry was great. but, i just feel so incompetent or that i dont deserve her because i have ocd, or that the only reason she likes me is because i sometimes take medication which may change my personality to make me look more attractive... my mind spins constantly all day, and i sometimes feel its not even worth the trouble, and i should just stay out of relationships... and that really depresses me... this past sunday i had such a bad anxiety attack that i almost passed out from hyperventilation, i was so light headed... without ocd im confident, a great leader and am very poise, but with it, i feel so incompetent
i wish i could just have a peace of mind with someone i enjoy being around, instead of constantly feeling as if i dont deserve to be around her