BlaiseBLATES
Well-known member
Sorry just a rant here, But please reply if you want .
I'm so flipping well fed up with all the crap going on.
I can't cope with all this for much longer.
I've tried everything that i can to get over my agoraphobia.
But nothing helps!
I've even had self hypnosis disks on every night for the past 5 months!
And taken so many pills that make me feel SICK.
I just feel this could have all been avoided.
If I hadn't have locked myself in my room I wouldnt be in this mess.
And if the idiots at my doctors surgery would have listened to me...
Well I'd be enjoying my life wouldn't I?
I'm young yes, but when you go to the doctors saying;
'Yes, I locked myself in my room for weeks due to depression and now I can't stand going out as it makes my heart race at the thought'
It should kinda hit a braincell to go 'This girl needs help!'
Not the reaction I got of;
'Wait til you're back in school it'll all just dissappear
They're flaming imbosils!
What was I meant to do for the remaining 2 weeks of summer holiday?
And it was a problem even getting me into school by then...
I had to be driven into school,
Just to be bullied whenever I was seen...
And had to continuessly leave my lessons due to panic attacks.
I had teachers constantly saying I had made everything up.
And if I mis-behaved slightly in a lesson then they would use it against me!
"If you do not behave Blaise I will not allow you to leave when you next have a 'panic attack'"
Not exactly the most supportive thing to say is it?
I felt the world was against me before my agoraphobia,
It's the reason I went into depression in the first place.
And the idiots at my school didn't make it any better for me.
But my school musical made everything better for me.
I enjoyed myself and was accepted there for my talent
(not to be bigheaded but i'm quite the actress and singer =])
And now i've had to give that up, along with school.
All my mates seem to have just forgotten about me now.
I used to see them daily...but now im lucky if i get a weekly visit.
The only person who comes to see me is my boyfriend...
But he's starting to rush me into going out now, to save our relationship.
Eugh...I just don't know anymore...
Thanks if you did read all this, please message me or comment below
I'm so flipping well fed up with all the crap going on.
I can't cope with all this for much longer.
I've tried everything that i can to get over my agoraphobia.
But nothing helps!
I've even had self hypnosis disks on every night for the past 5 months!
And taken so many pills that make me feel SICK.
I just feel this could have all been avoided.
If I hadn't have locked myself in my room I wouldnt be in this mess.
And if the idiots at my doctors surgery would have listened to me...
Well I'd be enjoying my life wouldn't I?
I'm young yes, but when you go to the doctors saying;
'Yes, I locked myself in my room for weeks due to depression and now I can't stand going out as it makes my heart race at the thought'
It should kinda hit a braincell to go 'This girl needs help!'
Not the reaction I got of;
'Wait til you're back in school it'll all just dissappear
They're flaming imbosils!
What was I meant to do for the remaining 2 weeks of summer holiday?
And it was a problem even getting me into school by then...
I had to be driven into school,
Just to be bullied whenever I was seen...
And had to continuessly leave my lessons due to panic attacks.
I had teachers constantly saying I had made everything up.
And if I mis-behaved slightly in a lesson then they would use it against me!
"If you do not behave Blaise I will not allow you to leave when you next have a 'panic attack'"
Not exactly the most supportive thing to say is it?
I felt the world was against me before my agoraphobia,
It's the reason I went into depression in the first place.
And the idiots at my school didn't make it any better for me.
But my school musical made everything better for me.
I enjoyed myself and was accepted there for my talent
(not to be bigheaded but i'm quite the actress and singer =])
And now i've had to give that up, along with school.
All my mates seem to have just forgotten about me now.
I used to see them daily...but now im lucky if i get a weekly visit.
The only person who comes to see me is my boyfriend...
But he's starting to rush me into going out now, to save our relationship.
Eugh...I just don't know anymore...
Thanks if you did read all this, please message me or comment below