ashmay19
Member
Hi.
I just want to rant.
I have had SAD for a few years now.
I believe that it is now Agoraphobia because I can't leave my house without freaking out. I have tried to conquer my fear by gradually going further and further but, it doesn't help.
I am almost 20 and haven't left my house since I graduated.
I have lost all my friends because I can't go out to hang out with them.
I take medicine but it doesn't help because it's too weak. I lie to my pschychiatrist becuase I hatw medicine and don't like taking it because I took so much as a child. And now, my parents are fed up with my "freeloading" and are going to shut my phone off in a month if I don't get a job.
IDK what to do... I have tried medicine (which does not stop my panic attacks at all unless I take the highest dose), self therapy ( I get one step forward and three steps back), and tried (keyword: TRIED) to explain to my parents and others about it but, I can never explain it thoroughly. I don't even know my mental disease anymore... I feel so guilty for not doing anything and being dependent on my parents for everything....What to do????
I just want to rant.
I have had SAD for a few years now.
I believe that it is now Agoraphobia because I can't leave my house without freaking out. I have tried to conquer my fear by gradually going further and further but, it doesn't help.
I am almost 20 and haven't left my house since I graduated.
I have lost all my friends because I can't go out to hang out with them.
I take medicine but it doesn't help because it's too weak. I lie to my pschychiatrist becuase I hatw medicine and don't like taking it because I took so much as a child. And now, my parents are fed up with my "freeloading" and are going to shut my phone off in a month if I don't get a job.
IDK what to do... I have tried medicine (which does not stop my panic attacks at all unless I take the highest dose), self therapy ( I get one step forward and three steps back), and tried (keyword: TRIED) to explain to my parents and others about it but, I can never explain it thoroughly. I don't even know my mental disease anymore... I feel so guilty for not doing anything and being dependent on my parents for everything....What to do????