psychotic

[Falkor]

Hi,

i can sense that i'm a bit psychotic. I'm not very psychotic , like that i cant think clear, but sometimes I have moments that i start to scream like an idiot. (when someone is blaming me for something for example, or when I feel like everybody is against me, while is not. Or that i did something wrong and they tell me that , and i start to scream like ooooh im such a idiot.. or when i have a discussion with someone.. my bro and i just had a discussion.. and i started to feel psychotic..and he told me i act so stupid because of doing that.. and i feel such a huge shame.. i was crying,screaming that i do everything wrong and i was trying to apologize and let him see that i only want to do a good thing.. but he didnt see it.. so it goes on and on... now he looks at me with that what's wrong with you face. and im just going insane
sorry.. im feeling really weird right now.. im doing really bad..
im just always suspicious about people .. EVERYONE.. im suspicious at..
so thats my stupid mistake

 

[Danfalc]

Hi FlowerGirlie

Have you got a doctor who you trust and feel you can talk about this sort of thing? What makes you think you are Psychotic? Have you had it before or is that just something you worry you may have?

I think you have been through a lot of stress recently, and dealing with the issues we have can be stressful anyway. But I think it's normal to not trust people sometimes if your not feeling at your best. When I was under a lot of stress my anxiety use to get so severe it was almost Paranoia.

As for the screaming and stuff. I don't really know though I don't think it makes you an idiot. Maybe that's just your way of getting some pent up feelings out?

But I really think you should speak to someone you can trust or a doctor just to put your mind to rest, or help you and give you more support.

 

[NathanielWingatePeaslee]

Screaming and crying are not symptoms of psychosis.

Maybe I don't understand what you're trying to say.

 

[DespairSoul]

Hi Flowerly,

I understand what u trying say. I know that feeling if u think everyone is agains you. Im totaly paranoic i see black where is white im very less trustful and often see mistakes where they are not. I dont try say i have clear paranoia or something. Or maybe who knows yep?I call me sometimes psycho too if i pop out. I pop very easily also and im feel later very bad about my self why *why i was i like that?* * why i do that?Whats wrong with me why scream coz of so small think?* I have big issues understand to myself sometimes i deeply believe my mental disorder totaly turned me to some one else who i dont wanna have in my live,but how i can dont have in my live myself?/ Kind of funny hmm. My advice is if you always will feel your *blood is cooking (soo i call that) then try count to the 10 before u start sometimes this really can help,or just leave room this is too good protection in front of your self. Also i agree with Danfalc that will be good if u try speak about it with someone. Is hard fight with this alone. I sometimes think my anger and screaming will be no more that i can control this,but later is again the same/ I know FLowerly why we scream coz we are bittered inside and this is hard to control.