sucks doesn't it? I go to parties or gatherings only if i know that a friend of mine is attending it. I wouldn't able to cope on my own, trying to mingle in with the crowd.
And when i do perhaps start some sort of interaction with anyone, i am most likely to create an idiot of myself, trying to sound interesting to others. Then i analyse it all, from start to beginning, what i should have said, what i regret saying and the list goes on.
i can say defiantly your not alone