i totally did something different than my ordinary routine, i played this game similar to tennis, with my friend and her friends who i dont know, and i sucked at the game, and behaved shy like always But it was totally worth it because is something i wouldnt have done on my own , it just took guts to do it and i felt good afterwards
I got a new job today and although it is going to challenge me on a social level I am really pleased I got it cos it's a great job! If all goes well and I manage to stick at it then I may be able to move out of my parents and gain some of that (seemingly unattainable) thing called independence! Woo-hoo! So it's been a good day, I have also gone up a bra size too (got measured!) so I am a happy (shallow) bunny! 😀
cool.
yo you gotta post pics of your self ! :wink:
1. Today I went to lunch with a good friend. I was in that 'spaced out' mood, but I got through it - I sort of forced myself through it. I enjoyed it (and the food was yum).
2. I went to the school parent-teacher night instead of finding an excuse not to go. I felt phobic but I sort of toughed it out inside - I felt feisty. And afterwards I didn't do the cringe dwell on it thing for that long... so what's happening? I think this forum must be helping!
one of the things i do everyday to battle anxiety is doing something that scares me .
today i was sitting on my chair checking out this website, and then i heard something like a knock on my door and ppl talking, i was little scare i think- it happened so fast - i knew it was those girls across my room playing footbal on the hallway, and then i got up and i was like "who do they think they are knocking on my door like that" , is not the first time anyways , so i opened the door, but i didnt say anything 🙁 , and one of them said "Hi" and the guy said "im sorry" then there was a 2 min pause and then i closed the door. after that i said " you better be sorry"
Good for you. :lol:
We need to post more positive things rather than nagative things. 🙂
And after I read the positive post I feel life is full of hope again :wink:
Walk bravely with my family,the beauty of life! 😳
I have to get over my fears of people, so I have been making a lot of phone calls. For work, I mean. This is an optional thing, of course. My co-workers are trying to help me through some college payments, so I'm doing some extra work concerning telemarketing and asking people if they'd like to buy subscriptions.
Normally, I hate using the phone. I'm not good at talking to people because I stutter and make a fool of myself. This is a good step for me; I'm putting myself out there more by taking the initiative to call others.
I'm talking with a beautifull girl on yahoo messenger now and i'm going 2 meet her tomorrow and I have absoluteley no anxiety thinking about it cause i Know if i'll fuck it up I got nothing 2 lose.
Why didn't my mind thought like this till now ? :? God I like what Prozac and other shit meds did 2 me 8) Of course I will be anxious tomorrow, but at least I'm not going 2 show it, I mean the symptoms will not be visible. :lol: Or at least this is what I think
On the other hand, If she sees who I am she will say leave me alone you freak, but I don't care, I'll bug her even more like a maniac 😀
Or, if it goes well, and it will 80 %, I know it will, I'm gonna have a brand new GF, my 3rd one. At least this is going to have sex with me cause the other 2 are still virgins. Btw, I chose the other 2 thinking what would my last options would be? Which are the girls that noone would want 2 date and I have more chances on ? So this is the idees I started when I choose them. But, luckily, they didn't seem such loosers like I thought, but this sex thing was killing me.
Oh well, wish me luck, I know I'm a lucky bastard, I wonder where did I get this hi self esteem ? Well, my life allready fuck me so now it's my turn 2 fuck her....so it doesn't matter what I do anyway :twisted:
Oh, and another thing, I dropped out school cause if I were 2 continue I would be now in the nut house. Ooooops, this wasn't supposed 2 be here, wasn't it ? But it's a good thin, right ?
K, see u guys, i'll update the info tomorrow :wink:
thats crazy, today i went to dinner when there were many people, i had to stand in a que, the thing i couldnt do before, and had to sit in the middle of that eating room, and was at least two times less anxious than before, am i not a good sp demons hunter, certainly am 8) 🙂
my mom took me shoppping.......my heart flippin ached and i felt like i was gona have a panick attack and i wanted to cry cause i just miss my ex......i bought some feathers and lolly pop sticks and pipecleaners and stuff to make lil worry dolls...
then i started to feel angry and tense....my mom put a bin at my feet that she bought me and i kicked it....cause it was in my way....
but....the positive thing is.......i had the urge to drink and smoke and i fought it....i took it down...tackled the sucker and went home and ate 3 bags of pom bears and drank some apple tango........
I dont usually kick bins............just for the record....and my mom did see the funny side and was proud i didnt swear and have a drink or a cigarrette 8O
she did get me in the car and put her foot down fast to get me home though :lol:
Tomorrow im going to practice my breathing and write in my journal. These are things my doctor advised me to do for the next 5 years after my last meeting with him, however I havent done that at all really, I need to start doing it and TOMORROW is the day (dont hold me to that :lol: )
Went to a interview with quite a large company and it went well! OMGOMGOMG I actually got through to the next stage. A couple o tablets of good old proponononol (you know what I mean) did help quite a bit though. :twisted:
Tis one of my bestest achievements now, ever. 😮 Yet I still get nervous about leaving the house in the mornings, argh!!
today at dinner i joined one of collegues and had a small talk, and even could make eye contact yaaay! of course im not saying i wasnt self conscious at all but i feel on the top of the world right now.
I have an appointment with a therapist on Monday. My first ever attempt at getting any real help for my SA. So maybe I can be a little more hopeful now. Maybe I'll be able to get some medication, and start to work on improvement.
Congratulations! I remember my first meeting and I was terrified before it and during 1st 20 mins, but as the meeting progressed it felt really therapeutic and I was excited cos I knew I didn't have to face all these worries on my own. I sincerely hope it works out brilliantly for you. Keep up the hard work - you will get there. 😀
You'd be suprised how a little positive thinking can go a long way. So I thought I'd post some positive quotes, some are quite random and not related to socialphobia. Enjoy 😀
"Happiness is a journey, not a destination."
Work like you don’t need money,
Love like you’ve never been hurt,
Sing like no one is listening,
Dance like no one is watching,
And live life everyday as if it was your last.
Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile,
a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment,
or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
-Leo Buscaglia
For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
-Souza
The harder you fall,
the higher you bounce.
"The future depends on what we do in the present."
Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours.
"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time
you've made me smile, the entire evening sky
would be in the palm of my hand."
. . . see without looking,
. . . hear without listening,
. . . breathe without asking.
-Auden
Out of clutter, find Simplicity.
From discord, find Harmony.
In the middle of difficulty lies Opportunity.
-ALBERT EINSTEIN
"Enthusiasm is contagious.
Start an epidemic."
-seen on a bumpersticker
Yesterday is history,
tomorrow is a mystery,
and today is a gift;
that’s why they call it the present.
-Eleanor Roosevelt
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