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SadPanda

SadPanda

Member
Hello :)

I'm new here, so would like to extend greetings to wherever you all are in the world!

I kinda found my way here the other day, but wasn't brave enough to post just then, but am now, lol. I've been a bit lost for the past year and am finding myself a bit now.

I was diagnosed as Bipolar 2 a few months ago, i've accepted it, I think I have known my whole life i've had it as the mood swings were there etc. Last year, I had a burnout at work, my manager was a bully who forced the most insane amount of work on me and at the same time critised everything I done. He broke me and destroyed who I was as a person.

If it wasnt for my kind and supportive husband I think I would have been lost forever, but I am still here and I believe a much more knowledgeable and wiser person for the experience.

How I feel now is totally different to how I was before, my medication seems to be working well, albeit I have anxiety about going outside my apartment on my own, but it doesn't bother me. I am happy here, I have plans to setup a small business from home (although I find it hard with concentration and motivation sometimes).

I am happy with my small circle of family and friends - the outside world no longer inspires me. I live in a concrete jungle, of noise and too much stimuli for me and rushy rushy business people (I come from a very tiny city on country suburbs). I just get bad vibes outside, not bad thoughts which cause my anxiety.

Does anyone else feel like this? Sorry if I waffled on a bit here :)
 
Apotheosis

Apotheosis

Well-known member
Welcome!

Personally I love the city. Something about the constant energy and motion inspires me. Granted I'm a bit odd, even here - I love being around people, it's just directly socializing that makes me want to melt.

I understand how daunting cities can be though.

I hope you find what you're looking for here. :)
 
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Siegfried

Member
Hi, actually im kind of new here too, the truth is that many times i have felt like you, i think i just rather be in my apartment instead of going outside and doing things, also I have a small circle of friends but i do not see them very often, since i was 13 or 14 i started to feel this way and that's how i've lived all this time, i have become accustomed to spend more time in my apartment than anything else so i know what you mean, but also i do not feel anxious to go outside, sometimes i just want to spend more time outdoors just to take fresh air and go somewhere quiet without many people around, it helps me clear my mind of all the things that bother me so much
 
SadPanda

SadPanda

Member
Thanks for your replies, I think I am beginning to accept me for who I am. Its a good feeling, although my bad days are still there, its a good start and I think this seems like a great place to be :)
 
WeirdyMcGee

WeirdyMcGee

Well-known member
awwww... a sad panda!?!
That's just... so... cute and unfortunate. Pandas should always be carefree!


Anyway-- welcome to the forum.
 
SadPanda

SadPanda

Member
Well, TBH, when I think of Sad Panda's I laugh, its more of a reference from South Park, he says in the show ''i'm a saaaaad panda'' hehe. But Sad Panda had like you say, a very cute ring to it :) Thanks for the welcome & good to meet everyone :)
 
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Matticus

Member
Welcome to the forum sad panda. Hehe, when i saw your name i instantly thought of the south park episode :)

People here are very kind i've found, and since joining the forum, i've actually started to get some help for myself, in the form of applying for job seekers allowance, dreading the interview, but i just tell myself, go there, speak, leave, Job done. As Del boy says in only fools and horses "Get in, Get out, Don't look back, thats my motto"
 
SadPanda

SadPanda

Member
Ahhhh Del Boy, I have the whole collection on DVD as its not shown over here, my Dutch husband now uses quotes like ''you plonker!'' No one knows what a plonker is here :/

I dread having to go to interviews and things, more the reason being is I dont speak the native language here and also just the anxiety as well. Their English is perfectly fine, but having to do the whole I dont speak ur language intro is nerve wracking for me haha!
 
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Matticus

Member
I'd like to learn another language, dutch or german most likely. I got all the only fools Dvd's too :) i can practically watch the episodes in my head, word for word lol If i were on mastermind, my subject would be only fools hehe
 
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