Hello everyone. My name is Jim and I'm new to this forum. I don't know why but everytime I go to public places, I always hear people calling me gay or homo all the time. I am not gay myself and I'm straight. I am diagnosed as having Schizophrenia by my psychiatrist. I really don't know why, but I always think that people are talking about me and calling me gay for no reason at all. That's why I avoid public places as much as I can. I have incidents before where I have confronted people verbally and shouted at them why are they talking about me. And after that, I have to apologise because they have said that they are not talking about me at all. I'm also suffering from depression because of my current condition. My psychologist before told me that I'm hyper-vigilant about the gay word and thinking that people are talking about me all the time. But my parents and friends think that I am just too shy towards people and I am not sick at all, they said I just need to get used to public places and expose myself. Easier said than done, going to public places is a big challenge for me. Any help would be appreciated. By the way, I go to the shops if I have to buy something,other than that, I stay home all the time. But I do challenge myself sometimes to go public places, if I'm motivated enough,and then trying to ignore the voices(the Gay word) that I hear from people. And finally, do you really think that people are talking about me and calling me gay or I'm I just too hyper-vigilant? Any help would be appreciated. Thanks.
People are talking about me all the time.
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dmsteyn
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I don't know enough about your situation to say that people are definitely not calling you gay, but it sounds like your psychologist is right. I am not gay either, but at school, some people thought I was, and called me those names as well. I'd advise you to keep going to the psychologist. Congratulations on challenging yourself sometimes; I know it can be hard.
hardy
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obviously we are hyper-sensitive to things that happen around us. I believe i am so important that people have no better things to do than to look at the beauty god(or whatever) has made in my form. I just can't let go of the thought that people are watching me all the time. These thoughts are killing me and the more i fight it...the worse it is becoming. maybe the answer lies in stop fighting...and suffering. I mean let it kill us....it's already such a pain living like this.....lets suffer and let these thoughts/unpleasant sensations kill us. Get busy dying(meaning,let these thoughts take over)....there is no other way.....we have to suffer. Let the worse happen..!! I am going for it.
It's my opinion...but i have figured out escaping our suffering is no way of living. It just makes things worse.....face your ****y unpleasantness and become strong perhaps.
It's my opinion...but i have figured out escaping our suffering is no way of living. It just makes things worse.....face your ****y unpleasantness and become strong perhaps.
