Well then. I am an only child turned adult I guess it could be said. It's truly been the worst thing for my SP. I was a mistake to begin with, and with mother having me at 40 or so there has never been much of an understanding or connection. However, this is not to be mistaken with care, motherly love or protection of which there was plenty.
This has been the root of my problem. I was constantly taken out of class at around the age of 11 to go to doctors, psychologists, therapists, you name it. When you see kids on TV being labelled with ADD and the rest, I get so angry. I so wanted to understand what was going on, and why I seemingly had every disease under the sun. This is when I first noticed something wrong with myself and my mother - when a girl came up to me and said "your mother is overprotective".
I now look back on those years and think, how could I have been so blind. But it was part my mother leading me, my reluctance to take charge and my mental maturity. Comparison plays an important role in my life and social situations. I had no one to relate to growing up. The more I realised this, the more I withdrew. I became obsessed with controlling myself and my mother as I became more aware of how she affected my past, and I still do to some degree. I am slowly trying to turn this behaviour around, but it is so hard because now I see faults in everyone.
Now I know this isn't all due to being an only child, but also an overmedicating compulsion of my mother. She now exerts this behaviour onto others - primarily old people.