OCD problem with semen.

You see, I have been socially awkward all my life and while I am not professionally diagnosed with OCD, I know I have it.

When I was aged 10-15, when I masturbate, I do it straight unto my pants and I threw it into the laundry without cleaning it up.

Now, my parents have been doing the family laundry since the beginning, and they have never really told me to not do it like that until I was around 16.

While I know that there wouldn't be any real hazards from anyone handling my clothes that have traces of semen on it, but whenever I think about this topic I'm mortified at how disgusting I was, and how much trouble I gave my parents.

The thoughts are in my head and I am extremely worried about... I don't even know what. I know that there isn't any hazards from it.

Should I just stop thinking about it? Since my parents never really bothered about it from the start? Should I just move on since it's the thing of the past? Am I obsessing because of my OCD, or are my fears somewhat legitimate?

Thanks for the time.


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Well when something bothers you a lot you can't just stop thinking about it. But you don't need to; in fact, I think in order to get past something that is bothering you, you need to think about it. You need to become aware of all your thoughts about what is bothering you and to analyze each one. Ask as many questions as you can about the thing that is bothering you, and about each negative thought you have about that thing.

If you have stopped doing it and are masturbating in a more sanitary way, then you should remind yourself that you have changed. You have aren't doing it anymore, etc. What you did is in the past now. Your parents didn't bother you, so there is a good chance that they don't have a big problem with it and they weren't worried about your health because of it. So you don't need to worry about it anymore.

Every time you start to worry/obsess about it, just think these kinds of thoughts and tell yourself them. Getting support on here should also help. If you want to get past this, you will. It might take awhile, but you will.

I don't think there would be any real negative health effects from this. It seems like a very minor thing to me. And I actually did this some when I first started masturbating too. I don't anymore though.
I think the majority of us would feel uncomfortable having that side out in the open like that. I for one still cringe thinking back to some of the things I've been caught doing in the first 14 years of my life. And while they're cringe worthy on a strictly personal level, in the big picture it is far less insignificant.

I'd try not to worry about it too much.
Hey guys, thanks for the answers.

I have recently looked pass that thanks to the advice u guys gave.

However, I recently also came to another concern. This one I dunno how to shake off.

I was a kid back then and many of my clothes were hand me downs.

I feel somewhat awkward that I have masturbated in pants that were ONCE, not mine.

How do I shake that feeling off?

It IS my pants when that happened and it's not like I shared pants. But I still feel weirded out as hell.
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