dewrestle25
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While I know this is an irrational thought I still cant help but obsess over it the last few days, but maybe some other peoples views about this will help me get over it. A few years ago my grandfather went diarrhea in the backseat of my parents leather seated car, and while my mom cleaned it up and disinfected it etc, I still havent been able to sit in that seat ever since. Well last week I moved into my new college dorm room and since it was a tight fit in my car, we had to pack many things on the mentioned seat. I made sure I placed a box on top of it because I knew I would obsess if I put anything crucial on top of it. In addition to the box I leaned the back of one of my chairs on the seat, intending to wipe it down with lysol after I moved in. But on the way to the top of my building my study pillow got placed on the back of the chair I had leaned on the seat. This is what I cannot stop thinking about and I feel that my study pillow is now infected and I get the idea that whenever I lay my head on the pillow that I am basically resting my head on a seat of diarrhea. I know this sounds dumb but ive had a history with this type of anxiety/ocd disorder. None of my other family members have a problem with this seat and maybe I should just get over it or is it really a big deal like I feel it is? I would love feedback from anyone. thanks very much.