So I have been with this guy now for 9 months and he is the love of my life. I have thought I was in love before and whatnot but come to realize that was nothing. He is totally supportive of me and I am in counseling for PTSD and for OCD. I am completely open with him about everything and he is with me. We have had some rocky times and it has causEd more and more triggered anxiety on my end.
I notice this in every super close friendship or relationship I get to be so controlling. I think it's the fear of losing them? Idk but I constantly have to ask him the same questions about certain situations over and over again to make sure I am not being lied to.. I think because I had been abused in the past. I obsess over it constantly I know he isn't lying bt I fear I'm missing something. If I don't ask a billion times maybe I will miss an important detail.
I always think I'm being lied to by anyone I get close to. And I obsess. It ruins me and I obsess over so much more. Images and words can kill me as they repeat in my head over and over again. Just wondering if anyone els has or is experiencing anything similar??
I just don't know if I can ever stop this all I ever wanted was to be happy and I am more than ever with him. But my OCD kills me ! I don't know if I will allow my treatment to help me.. It's so hard. I'm so scared of nof worrying
I notice this in every super close friendship or relationship I get to be so controlling. I think it's the fear of losing them? Idk but I constantly have to ask him the same questions about certain situations over and over again to make sure I am not being lied to.. I think because I had been abused in the past. I obsess over it constantly I know he isn't lying bt I fear I'm missing something. If I don't ask a billion times maybe I will miss an important detail.
I always think I'm being lied to by anyone I get close to. And I obsess. It ruins me and I obsess over so much more. Images and words can kill me as they repeat in my head over and over again. Just wondering if anyone els has or is experiencing anything similar??
I just don't know if I can ever stop this all I ever wanted was to be happy and I am more than ever with him. But my OCD kills me ! I don't know if I will allow my treatment to help me.. It's so hard. I'm so scared of nof worrying