WeirdyMcGee
Well-known member
Hey, all... this turned out pretty long... if you're horrible at reading, like I am... just read the stuff in red. haha.
So!
... I've been feeling kind of lonely lately, I think. I don't usually get lonely... so I was (still am) kind of confused about how I feel about the whole... needing people thing. -__- does that sound strange?
Anyways. I am 22, female- living with my mom and brother.
I've been agoraphobic since my first year of highschool - didn't attend 2 whole years because of it but I was able to still pass all of my classes and earn all the credits I needed somehow! I went to 3/4 of a year of film school... had to drop out because of money problems and then everything went downhill pretty rapidly.
I've been unable to leave my house for 2 years now.
I've been severely depressed for 1 1/2 years (a bit over that, actually...)
If it weren't for my mom taking me in and insisting that I stay with her, I would be homeless right now. I can't work, can't stand being around people, but I'm working on things slowly.
I go out all by myself once or twice a week... for a few minutes~ walking down the street and back or going into a store and I always come home and feel breathless then start sobbing.
A pretty sad existence for a 22 year old, I guess... but I'm used to it. That's the way I've been forever.
I don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs and never have.
I had one boyfriend in my life - we were together for almost 8 years but he left me 2 years ago... which I suppose was what triggered my depression and the sudden fallback into extreme agoraphobia. He was my security blanket, I guess. Now I don't have anything, really- just myself... and I'll have to learn how to do things by myself because it's the only way I'll be able to be a semi-productive adult.
I was a member of another forum not too long ago but I left because I was feeling down... I don't do well with conversation. I'm not a very good...um... talker and I don't know what to say to people, but I'm working on it. I just need a more positive space with people who kind of know what I'm going through so that I can feel slightly more comfortable than in public; where I assume everyone just sees me as a freak. (<which probably isn't true... but I always just assume...)
ANYWHO--- hello, forum!
Please treat me kindly-- as I will also do the same for everyone to the best of my abilities!
Thanks!
So!
... I've been feeling kind of lonely lately, I think. I don't usually get lonely... so I was (still am) kind of confused about how I feel about the whole... needing people thing. -__- does that sound strange?
Anyways. I am 22, female- living with my mom and brother.
I've been agoraphobic since my first year of highschool - didn't attend 2 whole years because of it but I was able to still pass all of my classes and earn all the credits I needed somehow! I went to 3/4 of a year of film school... had to drop out because of money problems and then everything went downhill pretty rapidly.
I've been unable to leave my house for 2 years now.
I've been severely depressed for 1 1/2 years (a bit over that, actually...)
If it weren't for my mom taking me in and insisting that I stay with her, I would be homeless right now. I can't work, can't stand being around people, but I'm working on things slowly.
I go out all by myself once or twice a week... for a few minutes~ walking down the street and back or going into a store and I always come home and feel breathless then start sobbing.
A pretty sad existence for a 22 year old, I guess... but I'm used to it. That's the way I've been forever.
I don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs and never have.
I had one boyfriend in my life - we were together for almost 8 years but he left me 2 years ago... which I suppose was what triggered my depression and the sudden fallback into extreme agoraphobia. He was my security blanket, I guess. Now I don't have anything, really- just myself... and I'll have to learn how to do things by myself because it's the only way I'll be able to be a semi-productive adult.
I was a member of another forum not too long ago but I left because I was feeling down... I don't do well with conversation. I'm not a very good...um... talker and I don't know what to say to people, but I'm working on it. I just need a more positive space with people who kind of know what I'm going through so that I can feel slightly more comfortable than in public; where I assume everyone just sees me as a freak. (<which probably isn't true... but I always just assume...)
ANYWHO--- hello, forum!
Please treat me kindly-- as I will also do the same for everyone to the best of my abilities!
Thanks!
