EscapeArtist
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Hey all, how's life. I've been feeling something lately and I can't find people that relate, they seem afraid of my neurotic-ism. Anyways, I have agoraphobia/generalized anxiety disorder. I can't leave the house lately to see friends unless they are in my direct vicinity (small ish town, 10 minute bike ride, I can only go at night etc etc). At the same time, I'm just learning about asking for help from friends and being vulnerable and honest about how I am feeling. I feel like a massive hypocrite and it's launching my anxious brain into feelings of self destructiveness.
My biggest trigger for self harm is that moment when you are swinging back and forth, all ready to go and dressed, to go to not to go to go can i go what if what if what if, nooo... and then the brain starts saying i'm a terrible friend who doesn't deserve support myself. More so i'm not used to this level of anxiety anymore, so it's putting me in a funk.
Just want to see if anybody can relate because that'd sure make me feel less useless. Have any words of wisdom?
My biggest trigger for self harm is that moment when you are swinging back and forth, all ready to go and dressed, to go to not to go to go can i go what if what if what if, nooo... and then the brain starts saying i'm a terrible friend who doesn't deserve support myself. More so i'm not used to this level of anxiety anymore, so it's putting me in a funk.
Just want to see if anybody can relate because that'd sure make me feel less useless. Have any words of wisdom?