Quietguy11
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I use the word Cognitive a lot because the cognition is what deals with your thinking and how you process information and all that, I find that my cognitive functionality is TERRIBLE in any group situation, whether it be in a night class, which I took up until last May, or whether I'm with friends. It's not that I am unintelligent or anything, I just can't seem to operate, again, cognitively, whenever I am put in a social situation that demands my contributions. Tonight was one of many examples for me, tonight from 5:00pm to 10:30pm I was playing D&D with the usual group and I felt VERY shut down. Here is a list of the feelings I feel/experience during these group outings.
1. Anxiety, fear of speaking.
2. When speaking, voice trembles, and I find it hard to get all my words out.
3. Feeling of being disengaged. Can't contribute to any of the conversations that go around the table.
4. Slight feeling of paranoia that I am weirding out the group because of my lingering silence (Or ruining everybody's night because of my very presence being in it.)
5. Trouble making eye contact when speaking or being spoken too because of pressure I feel around my eyes.
This is obviously a strong case of psychosis, but I wish there was an actual reason for why I feel this way. I can't think of one logical reason why I should feel so off like this.
1. Anxiety, fear of speaking.
2. When speaking, voice trembles, and I find it hard to get all my words out.
3. Feeling of being disengaged. Can't contribute to any of the conversations that go around the table.
4. Slight feeling of paranoia that I am weirding out the group because of my lingering silence (Or ruining everybody's night because of my very presence being in it.)
5. Trouble making eye contact when speaking or being spoken too because of pressure I feel around my eyes.
This is obviously a strong case of psychosis, but I wish there was an actual reason for why I feel this way. I can't think of one logical reason why I should feel so off like this.
