SXT
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This is my 1st post here so forgive me if there is something I do wrong.
First, a little background info on me. I am a 28 year old male that has been dealing with depression/sad since my early teens. I know there are different variations of sad in particular so here is mine. I become somewhat terrified if I am in a public place for too long, such as the grocery store, wal-mart, etc. Usually, just thinking about going into a public place starts the onset of the terrified feeling I experience. When I am in the middle of it (actually in the store or venue or gathering), the feeling I have is everyone is looking at me, judging me, etc. I do not make eye contact with anyone and if someone tries to make contact with me, I look away as fast as I can. This has caused me all sorts of issues throughout my mid-teen through adult life. It has affected the jobs I have had, the relationships I've been in, and even family gatherings.
As far as seeing a doctor for it goes, I tried once before and the doctor simply pushed some samples off me and didn't seem interested in what I had to say. So ever since then, I have refused to talk to another doctor about what I have been going through.
Something else that I would like to add to this is that, in my late teens/early 20's, I had major teeth problems. My wisdom teeth and all four teeth in front of those had all eventually decayed to the point where I could stick my pinky in the holes they left. It wasn't from failure to care for them, it was something that has been on my mom's side of the family forever. The dentist that eventually got them out referred to it as calcium deficiency and there wasn't anything I could do about it. I dealt with the problems of that for 10 years. During that 10 years, I had to take all sorts of painkillers and tried other drugs, such as Xanax, to help me deal with the pain. Keep in mind that the painkillers I would take would be from ending up at the ER due to the pain or from friends that would give me some because they knew about my condition and how difficult the pain made it for me to function on top of everything else. The specific painkillers I used were lortabs, oxycodones, oxycontin, percocet, darvocet, and methadone. I didn't abuse these drugs. I only took 1-2 a day when I had them. The Xanax I took were the white bars and I would take 1-2 of those a day max. Throughout those 10 years, I was also introduced to anti-depressants to try and cope with my sad/depression. The ones I tried were wellbutrin, atarax, celexa, and a couple others I can't remember. I tried each for 1-3 months and found all but the Xanax to have a negative effect rather than a positive.
Ironically, I found some of the pain killers to help with the anxiety. Specifically the lortabs and oxycodones. The Xanax worked better for that than anything else I have ever taken/tried. I can't even describe how much better I felt and how I was able to be social and not fear anything. My life improved drastically in the 2 months I was taking it.
So, the advice I am needing is how can I approach a doctor and actually get him/her to listen to me and possibly prescribe me to Xanax since it was the one thing that worked better than anything else? I am always afraid to ask a dr or talk to a dr about it due to the past experience I had with one. Not to mention, I don't want to come off like I'm just trying to get Xanax for the hell of it. Sorry for such a long post but I figured it was best to explain everything in order to get the best advice.
Edit: I also want to add that I do NOT want to be on pain killers for anything other than sever pain even though they reduce the symptoms.
First, a little background info on me. I am a 28 year old male that has been dealing with depression/sad since my early teens. I know there are different variations of sad in particular so here is mine. I become somewhat terrified if I am in a public place for too long, such as the grocery store, wal-mart, etc. Usually, just thinking about going into a public place starts the onset of the terrified feeling I experience. When I am in the middle of it (actually in the store or venue or gathering), the feeling I have is everyone is looking at me, judging me, etc. I do not make eye contact with anyone and if someone tries to make contact with me, I look away as fast as I can. This has caused me all sorts of issues throughout my mid-teen through adult life. It has affected the jobs I have had, the relationships I've been in, and even family gatherings.
As far as seeing a doctor for it goes, I tried once before and the doctor simply pushed some samples off me and didn't seem interested in what I had to say. So ever since then, I have refused to talk to another doctor about what I have been going through.
Something else that I would like to add to this is that, in my late teens/early 20's, I had major teeth problems. My wisdom teeth and all four teeth in front of those had all eventually decayed to the point where I could stick my pinky in the holes they left. It wasn't from failure to care for them, it was something that has been on my mom's side of the family forever. The dentist that eventually got them out referred to it as calcium deficiency and there wasn't anything I could do about it. I dealt with the problems of that for 10 years. During that 10 years, I had to take all sorts of painkillers and tried other drugs, such as Xanax, to help me deal with the pain. Keep in mind that the painkillers I would take would be from ending up at the ER due to the pain or from friends that would give me some because they knew about my condition and how difficult the pain made it for me to function on top of everything else. The specific painkillers I used were lortabs, oxycodones, oxycontin, percocet, darvocet, and methadone. I didn't abuse these drugs. I only took 1-2 a day when I had them. The Xanax I took were the white bars and I would take 1-2 of those a day max. Throughout those 10 years, I was also introduced to anti-depressants to try and cope with my sad/depression. The ones I tried were wellbutrin, atarax, celexa, and a couple others I can't remember. I tried each for 1-3 months and found all but the Xanax to have a negative effect rather than a positive.
Ironically, I found some of the pain killers to help with the anxiety. Specifically the lortabs and oxycodones. The Xanax worked better for that than anything else I have ever taken/tried. I can't even describe how much better I felt and how I was able to be social and not fear anything. My life improved drastically in the 2 months I was taking it.
So, the advice I am needing is how can I approach a doctor and actually get him/her to listen to me and possibly prescribe me to Xanax since it was the one thing that worked better than anything else? I am always afraid to ask a dr or talk to a dr about it due to the past experience I had with one. Not to mention, I don't want to come off like I'm just trying to get Xanax for the hell of it. Sorry for such a long post but I figured it was best to explain everything in order to get the best advice.
Edit: I also want to add that I do NOT want to be on pain killers for anything other than sever pain even though they reduce the symptoms.
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