SkyBlue
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helllo everybody this is my first time posting on the forum 
I'm a 19 year old girl from Florida, and for the past couple years i have been
going in and out of suffering from social phobia. Until the age of 17 i had
always been a very outgoing, friendly, talkative person with many friends. In
the middle of my junior year of high school i spent a little less than 2 weeks in the hospital because of viral meningitis. I fully recovered but after i returned to school i had a ton of make up work, and felt i could not relate to
any of my friends because i had been gone for 2 weeks and now that i was back my parents were not letting me go out (because i just got out of the hospital and needed to take it easy) which caused major anxiety for the first
time, I was so overwhelmed with the school work and not being able to relate that i decided to continue my junior year through a home schooling program. During this time i stopped talking to all my friends, because i had
nothing to talk about, all i was doing was my classes online and watching TV all day ( my close friends would call worried about me to see if i was okay, but i wouldn't answer for about 5 months because i was scared of having
nothing to talk about, and awkward conversation) When the school year finished and summer came i decided to reconnect with my old friends, and also made many new friends, but ended up going a little over board in the partying. When senior year came around i was back to my old outgoing, fun
self, but after two weeks of returning to my school i got arrested for getting pulled over and a friend having weed in the car. I was then sent to a rehab center for weed for about 2 months, and when i returned i had the same problem relating to my close friends again. I finished my senior year with a home school program and during that time did not want to leave the house or talk to anyone, scared of not being able to relate or not knowing what to
talk about... etc (that lasted about 6 months) After i graduated from high school last year, and summer came around i reconnected with a couple of my close friends and got a job as a hostess/waitress, started community college, and also started dating this guy who was a few years older than me
and had his own place. I was fighting with my parents alot so i ended up moving in with my new bf. I didn't do very well in my first semester of college due to just plain laziness and focusing more on my new relationship and going
out than school. In the beginning of this year my mom had recommended that i try a job as a flight attendant b/c i wanted to take a break from school. Also she did not approve of my bf, so it was a way to break us up considering I'd probably be living in a new state. I ended up nailing the interview process and getting the job,, i was sent to Dallas, Texas for my
training in the beginning of April, After a week of flight attendant training i had a major anxiety attack because i was not used to the schedule of waking up at 6 am and training all day until 7 at night around the same people breakfast lunch and dinner running out of things to talk about and seeming awkward around people especially because i haven't had many life experiences in the past 3 years that I'm very proud of. Also I'm one of the
youngest there. Flight attendants are also known for being very outgoing, talkative, social, and carefree... Ive been living at home again with my parents since my melt down in April in the same rut as before not talking to
anyone again, or wanting to go out and socialize with anyone in fear that i will come off as awkward as i have nothing to talk about because all i do all day is sleep, eat, watch tv, go for a walk and do it all over again. I am planning to go back to flight attendant training on August 31, and i am super
scared and have no idea what to do to prepare.... i can't fail at this opportunity because its the only thing i have going for me right now, i really cant stay at home any longer... i love my parents very much and they have
been more than understanding with whats going on with me, but i need to get my own life, but i am so scared and haven't talked to anybody or done anything for about 5 months now, any advice you have would be greatly appreciated. i really need HELP on what to do, and how to get over this SA thing
thx~
I'm a 19 year old girl from Florida, and for the past couple years i have been
going in and out of suffering from social phobia. Until the age of 17 i had
always been a very outgoing, friendly, talkative person with many friends. In
the middle of my junior year of high school i spent a little less than 2 weeks in the hospital because of viral meningitis. I fully recovered but after i returned to school i had a ton of make up work, and felt i could not relate to
any of my friends because i had been gone for 2 weeks and now that i was back my parents were not letting me go out (because i just got out of the hospital and needed to take it easy) which caused major anxiety for the first
time, I was so overwhelmed with the school work and not being able to relate that i decided to continue my junior year through a home schooling program. During this time i stopped talking to all my friends, because i had
nothing to talk about, all i was doing was my classes online and watching TV all day ( my close friends would call worried about me to see if i was okay, but i wouldn't answer for about 5 months because i was scared of having
nothing to talk about, and awkward conversation) When the school year finished and summer came i decided to reconnect with my old friends, and also made many new friends, but ended up going a little over board in the partying. When senior year came around i was back to my old outgoing, fun
self, but after two weeks of returning to my school i got arrested for getting pulled over and a friend having weed in the car. I was then sent to a rehab center for weed for about 2 months, and when i returned i had the same problem relating to my close friends again. I finished my senior year with a home school program and during that time did not want to leave the house or talk to anyone, scared of not being able to relate or not knowing what to
talk about... etc (that lasted about 6 months) After i graduated from high school last year, and summer came around i reconnected with a couple of my close friends and got a job as a hostess/waitress, started community college, and also started dating this guy who was a few years older than me
and had his own place. I was fighting with my parents alot so i ended up moving in with my new bf. I didn't do very well in my first semester of college due to just plain laziness and focusing more on my new relationship and going
out than school. In the beginning of this year my mom had recommended that i try a job as a flight attendant b/c i wanted to take a break from school. Also she did not approve of my bf, so it was a way to break us up considering I'd probably be living in a new state. I ended up nailing the interview process and getting the job,, i was sent to Dallas, Texas for my
training in the beginning of April, After a week of flight attendant training i had a major anxiety attack because i was not used to the schedule of waking up at 6 am and training all day until 7 at night around the same people breakfast lunch and dinner running out of things to talk about and seeming awkward around people especially because i haven't had many life experiences in the past 3 years that I'm very proud of. Also I'm one of the
youngest there. Flight attendants are also known for being very outgoing, talkative, social, and carefree... Ive been living at home again with my parents since my melt down in April in the same rut as before not talking to
anyone again, or wanting to go out and socialize with anyone in fear that i will come off as awkward as i have nothing to talk about because all i do all day is sleep, eat, watch tv, go for a walk and do it all over again. I am planning to go back to flight attendant training on August 31, and i am super
scared and have no idea what to do to prepare.... i can't fail at this opportunity because its the only thing i have going for me right now, i really cant stay at home any longer... i love my parents very much and they have
been more than understanding with whats going on with me, but i need to get my own life, but i am so scared and haven't talked to anybody or done anything for about 5 months now, any advice you have would be greatly appreciated. i really need HELP on what to do, and how to get over this SA thing
thx~
